I love you but I don't want to I need you but I hate you

He had spent centuries with only himself for company, he fed, tortured and killed that was his life and he liked it that way, until she came along and stirred something in him, something he couldn't and wouldn't accept. “If I were you I’d keep that stake sharp. Don’t expect anymore visits like this, next time I come I expect you to use that thing,” he told her pointing to the stake on the bed, and then he was gone.

"If you don't shut up, I'll give you a reason to." His eyes bore holes into mine and I inadvertently retreat with the sharp knife still pressed against my neck, my jugular vein pulsing... Douche. ༺♡༻ Avana Brooke, a 19-year-old high school senior balances her studies with helping her mother run their family bakery, creating a sense of contentment in her life. As she envisions a future as a writer in the peaceful surroundings of her home, little does she realize that a lifetime of secret is about to unravel, plunging her from happiness into a world of anger and despair. Unexpectedly, Avana finds herself being pursued by a distant kingdom, thrusting her into a realm beyond mortal comprehension. She possesses something of great importance to them, a secret coveted long before her birth. However, as doubts arise regarding the truths held by the dark kin and creatures pursuing her, Avana must navigate the perilous task of evading capture to challenge their beliefs and uncover her own destiny.