"Why won't you just leave me alone! I don't want your pity." I cried out as I struggled out of his grip, " Emma Knock it off, this whole, everything's fucking perfect act needs to stop before your heart does" he spoke firmly yet softly as I was pinned on the wall, I couldn't help but look in his Emerald green eyes, which usually had such hatred shown in them, but now looked as if the held compassion? He despises me, this is an act, it has to be. I refuse to be used by him. Hi, everybody, I hope you enjoy my book. want to know what it's about? I Will be updating most Fridays and when I have time, just a heads up this is my first book, I'm 17 and will be doing my best. Trigger warning, there is talk of abuse, depression, eating disorders, etc

❝𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙜𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮'𝙨 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙙 𝙤𝙛. 𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥. 𝙇𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙩. 𝙑𝙪𝙡𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚. 𝙃𝙪𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙. 𝙂𝙪𝙞𝙡𝙩𝙮. 𝙎𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙. 𝘼𝙣𝙜𝙧𝙮. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙮 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙖 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣.❞ Control. That's all Brylee wants. Control of her mind. Her weight. Her life. She may have a slightly unhealthy relationship with food, but she's fine. At least, that's what she tells herself. Then he comes along - the one she swore she would never let in again. His mind is an enigma. But maybe he's not as bad as she thought. Or maybe he's even worse, she can't decide. As their senior year progresses, secrets become harder to keep in the dark. She's losing control. And so is he. But sometimes losing control is a good thing.

"I had always fit into people's standards. Perfect. People don't tell you how much it sucks to be perfect. They expect happiness. They expect a put-together life, but my life was anything but happy and put-together. Some days were great, but more often than not I would find myself screaming into my pillow in the early hours of the morning." ~~~ Picture-perfect body, picture-perfect hair, picture-perfect friends, picture-perfect boyfriend, picture-perfect life. But is Faye's life really so perfect? Is she really what is shown in the media under the blinding lights? Is being a cover girl really that great? TW: Anorexia/bulimia, emetophobia, body dysmorphia, emotional abuse, suicide, self harm *If LGBTQ+ topics make you uncomfortable don't read this* *VERY BAD. WILL REWRITE SOON*

Marissa has the life that many women dream of. Beautiful house, an amazing career, and rich men chasing after her. Her life may seem perfect, but is everything as it seems? What they don't know is her past. Why she moved all the way across the country as soon as she graduated from high school? Or the ex boyfriend that she still is in love with. The same ex that gave her the best gift of all; while breaking her heart. Marissa may not have Anorexia anymore but now she has even more problems. What happens when she finally runs into soda ex boyfriend? Her perfect life will suddenly bow up for the whole world to see. Oh and did I mention she has a child now? The sequel to Ana {Not Edited} Written in 2015 - 2016, so please excuse an errors. I was, and still am learning. Unedited

Sequel to Hunger. Recovery can be good, finally becoming who you used to be, and living life happily. But what happens when everyone leaves and you're left alone with your old thoughts? With that feeling of emptiness inside of you.

Is weight what really matters in life? Maybe it is, maybe it's not. Maybe some people care about it more than others. Livia, 17-year-old girl gets to experience the real raw world. Friends, best friends, are suddenly making her conscious of her body. The comments are driving Livia to the deep end, suffering endlessly from the need to starve, to always be more beautiful. Can she be saved anymore, or does she even want to be saved? Disclaimer: English isn't my native language, so I'm very sorry if there's spelling mistakes, etc!! Also, this is my first real book here and my writing gets better throughout the chapters!!! The first chapters are clingy, but it gets better<3 ⚠️TW⚠️ I do not recommend this to anyone recovering or struggling with an eating disorder, or younger readers. This story is based on true stories and can be a bit rough. Story contains: ed, anorexia, sh, violence

Jules is forced to live a life in the psychiatric ward after her eating disorder nearly ends up taking her life. Stuck in a life that is contained within four walls, while she fights her battle with an eating disorder and depression, trying to gain control of the demanding voice in her head. Finally having to admit that she can't do it herself and faces vulnerability by doing so. She endures love and heartbreak but only she can save herself. Will Jules recover and finally be free of the voice that has become the burden of her life? ~ I've Got It Under Control That's what she thought. That's what they all think when it first starts. They had control, had, past tense. Now they wish they did. Their bodies are screaming for help but their head is saying otherwise. Hunger coursed through Jules's body, the rumble of her stomach was like a thunderstorm, violent and painful. It scared her, yet it also satisfied her. She started to skip breakfast, and once she realised she didn't need breakfast, she knew she wouldn't need lunch nor dinner. ~TW: Goes into depth about eating disorders, mentions about suicide and self harm. View at your own risk~

"If you could see your demons for what they are, you'd never let them anywhere near you. " Avery Payne is completely disgusted with her body. She'll do anything to be skinny like all the other girls at school - no matter the cost. What happens when exercising becomes dieting, and dieting turns into the deadly Anorexia? Avery is about to find that Anorexia, Bulimia, Depression, Suicide, and Anxiety are demons, quite literally. What if you could see these illnesses for what they were? What would they say to you? More importantly, what would you say back? Can Avery defeat Ana, or will it claim her life? [The Fighter's Series: Book 3] Highest Rank: #4 in Short Story (A/N: It is not necessary to read the other books in order to understand this one)

***I Don't Eat Cupcakes*** "Cupcake?" I eyed the sugary snack and willed myself not to stuff the whole thing in my mouth. "No thanks. I'm not hungry." Lie "I ate before I got here." Lie "So I'm pretty full." In case you haven't guessed it yet that was also a big. fat. lie. Now why would I not want to eat a perfectly frosted chocolate cupcake with rainbow sprinkles? I mean, who in their right mind would do that? It's a chocolate cupcake! But I'm not in my right mind, I don't even know where my mind is anymore, all I have is a voice in my head saying-never mind. I'll just get straight to the point and tell you who I am. Hi. I'm, Diane Coleman and I'm anorexic.

• Highest Ranking #1 in Bulimia • •Highest Ranking #1 in Free Mental Illness • He's a quarterback struggling with a secret eating disorder that's destroying his life. She's a food-fanatic who loves every curve in her beautiful body. When their school is entered into Food Networks, "Chew With Schools" television cooking competition- Cira and Will are teamed up, and the crazy thing is. They might actually win.