❝God you have failed me once again❞ ••• where fukuzawa makes a mistake and creates a groupchat between groups. available on AO3 ••• highest rankings: #1 in soukoku - 01/03/23 #1 in skk - 06/03/23 #1 in fyolai - 06/03/23 #1 in bsd - 14/03/23 #1 in sskk - 27/03/23 #1 in suegiku - 25/04/23 #1 in shinsoukoku - 30/05/23 #1 in sigma - 30/05/23 #1 in atsushi - 29/01/24

After Dostoyevesky's death having Dazai nearly witnessing the death of all of his friends, he finally has an actual change in heart. Despite that, he's plagued with horrid nightmares of everyone dying and all because of him. As always he can't seem to get away from Chuuya either with him being the focal point of every nightmare and it did have an impact on him. Dazai realises he in fact holds strong feelings for the short ginger man. Naturally, of course when one side of double black changes so does the other. All this while trying to deal with 7 missing people and 6 missing families is a lot to juggle. 𝒯𝓇𝒾𝑔𝑔𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒶𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 - mentions of suicide - graphic depiction of suicide - mentions of self harm - mentions of death -swearing, mentions of alcoholism - alcohol - smut - graphic imagery

Different stories of Dazai and Chuuya . Each chapter is independant from the others unless i mention it .

Life is not perfect... It never has been... But for Dazai, living is a curse... After losing his parents, his life drained inside him. Which made him live in a deep, dark shadow. Dreaming of dying with someone, and wishing that he will soon be free... The story of his life is not as great as the other kids... The more time comes, the greater the challenge. When something arrives, they will leave him after. But everything changed after one simple day...

Dazai tries to commit suicide by jumping off of the Port Mafia headquarters building... but then a certain redhead from his past saves him. Will the two former partners in crime be able to reconnect, or will one's inability to love others and the others' inability to love himself get in the way? This fic will include some other ships like Shin Soukoku, Ranpoe, and Gin & Higuchi Note: Cover art is not mine, I found it on pinterest. All characters belong to Kafka Asagiri, author of Bungo Stray Dogs (except for any ocs)

❝Well maybe you're right but if you hadn't have hurt me so much Dazai then maybe I would have been able to love you❞. 🦋 Warning for mentions of suicide, self-harm, drugs, sexual assault and violence 🦋 I wrote this when I was 17 and now I am 21 so shhhhhhh there may be grammar and punctuation mistakes