Matty thought he knew himself, but after an unexpected breakup and a surprising proposal from his best friend, he finds his preconceived notions shattering in the span of a few days. Matty has no idea who he is anymore, especially regarding who he's attracted to, but with his busy schedule and a string of seemingly never ending shows, he isn't left with much time to ponder it. It really shouldn't matter anyway, and Matty's trying to convince himself that it doesn't, but the one thing that does matter is George, and the constant fear of damaging their friendship keeps Matty from exploring the newly revealed path that is extending before him, pushing him down other avenues that he assumed he had escaped from long ago. ~~~ Completed *contains descriptions of drug use and sexual content*

Their relationship had been filled with its share of flippant and careless touches from the beginning, but Matty's hand on his back in the middle of the night meant something to him. It was intentional. It always had been. A reassurance in the dark that wordlessly communicated 'I am beside you'. //// A history of George and Matty told in brief vignettes, from alternating perspectives, over the course of 10 years. 13 parts.

in which matty healy is dying and in love - two of the worst combinations a person could be, and he wishes to spend his time lost within his own head. and who is george to stop him? © 2016 ↯ plebeians- a the 1975 fanfiction