Dear Journal, I cannot Tell Dean what happened. I worry that he will be angry and cause war between the angels. I must keep this to myself and learn how to navigate life without my grace. I put him and Sam through so much and I feel this would only add to their stress. And that is the absolute last thing I wish to do. I do not wish harm upon the other angels as they have to me, which is why I shall not try to get, as Dean would say revenge. I must act as if nothing has changed so that the two do not grow suspicious. That is all ~ Castiel