A compilation of words written by a worried soul for all those who are lost, for those who are trying to find their way home, and for those who haven't find themselves, yet.

The 3am version of myself is the most vulnerable yet truest version, through poetry I am able to reflect some of the thoughts that are never able to escape my mind and some of the words that are never able to escape my mouth.

"I know that we will never be a real couple, but we can at least be nice to each other Aneel" I told him. I've had enough. Tears were starting to prick my eyes, but I didn't let them fall. He looked over at me in a weird expression. Like if I died in front of him, he wouldn't care. "You don't get it, do you?! I. will. never. love. you! I will never care for you. You wait, every day, for me to come home and have dinner with you like normal couples do- you are pathetic. You are nothing! Absolutely nothing to me. You are not even worth my words. You are a loser who has nobody- your parents? They are just like me. They knew that you were worthless and wanted to get rid of you" he said angrily. I was not angry at him. He was telling the truth. I'm nothing. Never was, never will. I nodded. He was right. He was so damn right. Sahra Ali is eighteen years old when she gets married. It was not a marriage out of love, no, she was forced into it. Shre grew up being abused. Her parents sold her for money. No parent would do that, so are her so called parents her real parents? She is trying to survive this marriage, because she believes in Allah and knows that He had a good reason that He gave her all these pain. Aneel Osman is a badboy who wants nothing to do with Islam. He was a muslim when he was younger, but when something bad happened, he blamed Allah for it. Deep inside he knows that it is wrong, but shoves that thought away. He began doing the things Allah prohibited. There was no one to hold onto or to pull him out. He kept falling and falling. And when he has to deal with that girl his parents wants him to marry, he is losing himself more and more. Read the description in the book for the fully version! This is a short draft! ~ Salaam guys, this story is edited! Almost everything has CHANGED and it is now a mature story. I like how it turned out. Thank you for all your support! It still contains small grammar mistakes. You have been warned:)

Kyla Johnson is a girl who is forced to move from her home city of Sacramento, California to Seattle, Washington because of her fathers job. She hates the fact that she has to start over in a new city and most importantly at a new school called Lakeside Academy. Kyla's life starts to turn into a crazy roller coaster from the moment she steps foot into Lakeside Academy all because of a guy named Liam Lock. His crazy mood swings and personality aren't the only thing Kyla notices on her first day at school. There's something strange about Liam Lock that intrigues Kyla’s curiosity. Follow the twist and turns that will interlace Kyla and Liam together as boarders are crossed and emotions are played with.. What will happen to these two in the end. Pain and Pleasure: All Rights Reserved Copyright © 2012 Whitney T. Hines
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