UPDATES DAILY! "There are three things you need to know before reading this: 1. There are no happy endings, some of us just end up with a little less tragedy than everyone else. 2. You were never supposed to read any of these, so if you are, then first of all I hate you for this, but you reading this means I'm gone. 3. I never really stopped loving you." started: november 4, 2019 finished: [whenever it's finished] new chapters posted at around 9pm PST (key word: around- i'll try to be as consistent as possible but it might not be exactly 9:00)

In which Felix's parents send him off to a Christian Bible camp, hoping that it would help alter his sexuality. At camp he befriends a group of boys, including a tall, handsome guy who immediately grabs Felix's attention. Little did he know, that handsome boy's name would be announced as his roommate for the entire month. ✧ You'll get to read into the lives and points of view of multiple characters. ✧ Includes fluff, angst, and smut ✧ Arabic translation in my reading list ✧ Started 20.02.22

seungmin's father expects seungmin to be behaviorally and academically perfect in order for his son to successfully take over his famous company. what happens when seungmin starts to fall for the bodyguard that's already in a commited relationship? Cʜᴇᴀᴛ || sᴇᴜɴɢᴊɪɴ #1 changlix 19.08.2021 [completed]

When Minho was seventeen, he moved away from his burning household and spent his last year of high school living on his own. During his year he met a certain boy, who gave him a new view on life. However, now almost a decade later he starts receiving letters letter that were never sent from Jisung's home address- in the color red velvet. Except, it's impossible that it's him- because he died nine years ago. - TW: this book will contain very sensitive topics, so please don't read if any of the listed topics affect you. - suicide - self harm (only mentioned once.) - fighting, yelling, screaming. - smut (minor?) - family issues - abuse - assault - swearing Stay safe and remember there is always someone there to help. Ask for translation permission! Thank you, I love you <3

"because forty-eight hours ago i was planning on killing myself." he says, staring out at the ocean. "what changed your plans?" the boy asks. "you." - ⚘ major trigger warning right now, since i will not be putting warnings for any mature content in chapters. this story will have a lot of heavy, and mature topics. it's not for the faint of heart, for sure. if you struggle with suicidal thoughts or anything like that, just know one, it's going to be okay, and two, you can always talk to me whenever. i might just be stranger on the internet, but i'm here if you need me. i love you, and your all doing so great :) ⚘ this story is going to go by so fast, since it's a short story. i know, it's impossible to love somebody or like trust somebody in 48 hours ⚘ the chapters will have song titles in them, and those are either my fav songs or songs that inspired me :) ⚘ this book does not reflect on the members personality in real life, none of this is real. all fiction, for entertainment purposes. i do not own any characters. ⚘ ask for translation permission. ⚘ there will be typos in this story, and i apologize for any spelling or grammar mistakes. feel free to point out any mistakes you find, so i can fix them. thank you, i love you <3

❝𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐞'𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧❞ ❝𝐰𝐡𝐨'𝐬 𝐰𝐞❞ ❝𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐥, 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟏𝟐 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞 ❞ 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐚 𝐝𝐨𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫, 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞: - 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 - 𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨 - 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙭 𝙗𝙤𝙮 - 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙨𝙩 - 𝙛𝙡𝙪𝙛𝙛 𝐀 𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 🌙 𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 [𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐝]

( Bang Chan + Lee Felix ) ❝I don't want my Lixie to leave me...❞ ┈┈ mistopher | 2022 ++ Traumatized from his past of sex addiction, intercourse is the last thing that Chan wishes to partake in. However, he is yet to adopt the habits of healthy communication. So what happens when Felix begins to grow uncomfortable, and Chan feels like he's doing something wrong? Will he finally open up about his challenges to the one he loves most? Or will Chan go to any extent to show Felix that he loves him? || SATYRIASIS BOOK 2/2

( Bang Chan + Lee Felix ) ❝Teach me how to love, without lust...❞ ┈┈ mistopher | 2021 ++ Satyriasis; uncontrollable sexual desire in a man. Sex addiction, a mental illness just like the rest, yet so overlooked. So what is Bang Chan to do when all those around him either take advantage of his addiction, or look down on him for it? He's not quite sure, and Chan only hopes that that special someone would be willing to overlook his past, and teach him how to truly love, with no lust. || SATYRIASIS BOOK 1/2

"Remembering hurts. But do you know what hurts more? Forgetting." 𝘞𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘛𝘸𝘰 𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 -𝘬.𝘢.𝘵 tw: mental/physical illness, death, brief mentions of suicide/self-harm and abuse ::this work is fictional and not intended for defamatory purposes

It was just supposed to be a dare - a meaningless dare with no intention other than stupid revenge. But then Hyunjin started to fall in love, and he couldn't stop. '𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙩𝙝 𝙞𝙨 𝙧𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙚 ' - 𝙤.𝙬 TW:: psychological abuse/manipulation ::this work is fictional and not intended for defamatory purposes