nemesism (n.): frustration, anger, or aggression directed inward toward oneself and one's way of living ~~~~ Spencer Reid has never had it easy. He struggles with obsessive-compulsive disorder and autism on a daily basis, masking at work so his colleagues don't see him as weak. It seemed like an impenetrable plan; pretend at work, hide his true identity. But after years of bottling up emotions, he picked up several unhealthy coping mechanisms. Not long after he became clean from Dilaudid, he returned to his oldest-learned mechanism; self-harm. Spencer simply replaced one addiction with another. After several weeks of worrying behavior and an especially triggering case, Derek Morgan ends up driving Spencer back to his apartment. He asks to stay the night to make sure his friend would be okay, and Spencer regrettably agrees. And then his whole world is turned upside-down. ~~~~ This story could be very triggering and includes graphic scenes of self-harm along with suicidal ideation, depression, ocd, ptsd, nightmares, meltdowns + sensory overload, and generally very heavy themes, so please read with caution. ~~~~ cross-posted on ao3, same username updates are sporadic as I am in college right now, but I have all intentions to finish this story!

SEQUEL TO HOLD ON !!! read hold on before this !!! Dream finally opened up about his problems and is ready to recover. His friends are more than ready to help him in every way possible. So what could happen? What could possibly go wrong? tws mentioned at the beginning of every chapter main tws: >suicidal thoughts >panic attacks >rape >self harm cover art - lustylita on insta

George is slowly breaking apart from the inside out. Every inconvenience leads him further away from himself, and he's not really sure if he can go back to who he was before. Years of pretending to be someone else has blurred the lines at this point. So when a party goes awry, George finds himself laying in the middle of the road, wanting nothing more than to no longer exist. It almost happens. 8 inches separating him from death. Dumb decisions lead to dumb actions that lead to irreparable damage. And George really screwed himself over with one really bad, untimely decision. Dream seems to be the only one to have any idea of how George is feeling. and he seems to be the only one noticing how he's breaking apart. It takes one tourtured soul to recognize another, after all. ~ "Didn't your mom tell you not to take candy from strangers?" "Of course she did, but I would have to care to actually listen." Will contain NSFW scenes !! Highschool AU George is NOT colorblind :) For TW's read ❗️Please Read❗️I DO NOT PUT TW AT THE BEGINNING OF CHAPTERS !! ~~ #3 in Dreamnotfound - 7/05/22 #11 in Highschoolau - 11/30/22 #16 in DNF - 12/06/22 ~~ 50k reads - 08/14/2022

This is the cheerleader George, football player Dream au nobody asked for... Clay "Dream" Collins is your average high school football prodigy, popular and charming. Nearly everyone at school is in love with him, most of which is from his own manipulation. George is a new transfer student that became captain of the cheerleading team. He is an optimistic boy who isn't afraid to dress feminine, and while many respect him for this, many judge him. After one eventful night at a party, Dream and George end up alone in a room, with George claiming he won't ever fall for Dream. Dream makes this his goal to change the male cheerleader's mind. How hard could it be? ----- cover art is by @pencantdraw on twitter! trigger warnings include: - alcohol/drug usage - eventual smut/spice - abuse/violence/sexual assault - eating disorder/PTSD/anxiety - self harm/suicide attempt (it's not that bad, most of the angst is in the middle chapters i promise :]) That being said, I will put any trigger warnings at the start of the chapter in which they occur. George has an eating disorder in this story so I won't always put a tw for it unless I go into detail about it, keep that in mind while reading. Sometimes I also mention previous events that have happened in the story that might be triggering so if I forget to put a tw, respectfully comment and let me know :) all of the characters in this story are simply characters, and do not represent them as real people milestones (ily guys): 1k- 3/25 ✔️ 5k- 3/27 ✔️ 10k- 3/28 ✔️ 50k- 4/6 ✔️ 100k- 4/15 ✔️ 200k- 4/27 ✔️ 300k- 5/7 ✔️ 400k- 5/13 ✔️ 500k- 5/20 ✔️ 600k- 6/2 ✔️ 700k- 6/24 ✔️ 800k- 7/18 ✔️ 900k- 8/10 ✔️ 1m- 9/14 ✔️ #1 in dreamwastaken: 4/17 #1 in dreamnotfound: 4/25 #3 in dnf: 4/29 #4 in georgenotfound 5/13 #32 in gream 6/2

"Dream?" After years of salvaging on his own, wondering where he had gone after all these years, who knew he would stand in front of him in these circumstances? ** DISCONTINUED ** - Sequel to psithruism - TWs all in the beginning, read with caution!

George, the town's Wild Child. He's known mainly for his guilty behavior around the neighborhood, but also his filthy rich parents. He's mastered sneaking out, but one day, the cops stop the party and arrest George. As soon as his parents find out, they tell him the news. He's going to a boarding school, across the world. (This story WAS originally based off the movie 'Wild Child' but as i've continued this story I'd rather not say it is based off of it. Considering the only similar parts are sort of the beginning, I've decided to just say it isn't based off of it anymore!) Link to spotify made for this book is linked in bio!! ----------- TW: -Underage drinking -Sexual assault -Homophobia -Angst -Suicidal thoughts -Attempt of suicide -NSFW??? not sure -Self harm -Manipulation -Auditory hallucinations +More (TW's are also provided at the beginning of the chapters until chapter 39 for spoilers, please read with caution!) -----------

tw: self harm, swearing, angst, depression, eating disorder, mention of suicide Dream has always been struggling with depression. Right when he thought he was slowly doing better, he finds out about George having a crush on a certain girl. While having to admit to himself that he is in love with his best friend, he also starts falling apart again. Especially since George is unreachable now, right? our dms are always open if you need anything <33 21.2.22: #1 in dreamnotfound :)

༄ Dream is the lead guitarist in a band, George is just a boy who happens to be the one Dream falls for. Little does George know this isn't the first time he's ever encountered the man he will slowly come to love. - tws/cws at the start of each chapter !! :) ALL RIGHTS RESERVED please ask for permission before attempting to repost/ use/ make new works/ with any content from this book. please contact me to discuss further through tiktok - @amymayfarrell_ instagram - @amymayfarrell

It was supposed to be a joke. No Nut November was just a stupid challenge that idiotic people took too seriously. Unfortunately Dream was one of those people, and now the idea was stuck in his head. Last a whole month without any release. It was funny to George, how crazy serious Dream took the whole ordeal. And he continued to find the humor in it, until Dream told him that he was too weak to last. It ticked George off to no extent, and he was determined to prove that he was the strong one out of the two. Even if he had to get his hands dirty in the process. * * * THIS IS SATIRE DON'T COME FOR ME PLEASE !!

Dream confesses that he doesn't moan during sex , and George is willing to bet he could change that. *this fic is nsfw and it's just a oneshot there is only 1 part !!