A story of two utterly shattered people. Karl and Sapnap are both living in North Carolina in their early twenties. Karl is a drop-out university student, meanwhile Sapnap is an attending university student. Karl lives a life fighting against himself every day, filled with brokenness and anger towards himself. Sapnap lives a life somewhat full of distractions and happiness. * Not shipping, this is a fictional book! :) TWS: Swearing, Self Harm, Body image issues, Alcohol, Mature Scenes, Gore, Body Dysmorphia, Very Low Self-Esteem, Body Checks, Starvation, Trauma HEAVY TW on body image #1 karlnap April 4, 2022! #5 anxiety disorder May 16, 2022 #3 tired June 5, 2022 #15 recovery June 30, 2022 #4 tired July 6, 2022 #8 anxiety disorder July 8, 2022 #5 tired July 8, 2022 #7 anxiety disorder July 10, 2022 #3 tired July 15, 2022 #1 unlabelled July 21, 2022 Cover: Peter Wever

[High school AU] Karl had bad OCD and feels lonely, he romanticizes his whole life but has no one there for him. Nick is a football player but not because he wants to be, his dad makes him play football. Nick want to be who he truly is, not some jock with disgusting friends. Big TW's: -OCD -slight depression -betrayal (fake love) -intrusive thoughts -self harm started: March 18th, 2021 finished: