Desiderium (n) A fervent longing, as if something is lost. Rin Okumura lost his freedom to the Vatican. ~ Rin Okumura is now an exorcist, he is at the Vatican's beck and call. Rin chose to not tell anyone besides Yukio and Shura so no one would expect everything from him, though one day he's given a proposal. A team was being put together to combine the Illuminati and another government company. Rin could get away from the Vatican and still try and stop his father. What the hell is Rin about to get himself into? ~ "'You said that this team... it's a joint project between the Illuminati and something else. Who?' I asked, looking away from the card he had just given me. He scratched the back of his head. 'Oh, it's some secret American company. I think it's called Shield.' " #1 in blue exorcist: December 10, 2020 (Partially dedicated to my father because he choose a lot of the names and places) (Also inspired by 'Rin Moves Out' by @Kyandidemon)

this is unedited btw ☽︎ "Rin, is true that you have been sneaking in and out of campus?" All eyes landed on Rin. They bore into his soul. "True," Rin answered an almost icy tone in his voice. His eyes were cold sending shivers up everyones spine. "Where do you go?" Mephisto asked despite the growing fear. "That isn't apart of the question." ☽︎ • Rin's secrets are slowly unveiling themselves. His true plans are being put into action. What does the future hold for True Cross Academy? 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭.

Remember Sei Godain? That kid in the manga that Rin helped with his demon problem? Well Sei returns to see Rin again but what happens when he finds his demon classmate alone and crying...? What happened to Rin?!

Rin doesn't care. He hasn't been able to since he was six. He knew he was emotionally detached from the start, even before Shiro had taken him to a psychologist to be officially diagnosed with severe Emotional Detachment due to trauma. He also never thought he'd have friends, but here he was, killing demons side-by-side with the only people on the planet that cared about Rin Okumura. "Huh. I guess even someone like me can have friends. That's unexpected."

(Revised Story) Rin is neither human nor demon, he fits in nowhere. His so called "friends" make that known often, and his own brother has turned his back on him. With no one to talk to, Rin turns to self destructive behaviors in order to get through everyday life. However, will a routine mission make it all crumble apart?

Yukio has come back from the Illuminati but he's still very cruel to Rin but before Yukio came back he did something to Rin that was the last straw. You would think Rin being Rin would angry, no. He didn't get angry instead he is now terrified of Yukio and Yukio is finally realizing he's lost his brother and doesn't know how to fix it since every time Rin sees Yukio he runs away. Rin moved out of the same room and to a different one and has several locks on the door to stop his brother from coming anywhere near him. How will the brothers fix this or is it even possible to fix what Yukio has done? WARNING: Small amount of swearing DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own Blue Exorcist/Ao No Exorcist I own the cover

Description below warnings! Updated every month TW: R*PE, SELF H*RM, DEPRESSION, ABUSE, P*DOPH*LIA Will contain shipping Rin was raised in a relatively normal home and provided a decent life, but there was underlying abuse that no one saw, this abuse caused his life and mental health to spiral down quickly. Sooner or later, Yukio drags him to True Cross Academy, Opening his eyes to a brighter place, away from his problems, but will his happy facade keep hold ? Started: Before March 18th 2025 Inspired by the amazing book "horrible acts" by 19FandomTrash98, another blue exorcist novel here on wattpad ! I suggest reading their book before mine 🤍 ! (not an ad i swear)

"Kalau aku tak boleh buat, macam mana ?" "Izz...tak ada manusia yang sempurna." 🌦️🌦️🌦️ Dia Izdihar Hafiz. Anak muda yang hidup dalam dunia yang penuh luka dan persoalan. Izdihar sering menjadi mangsa kebencian yang tidak difahaminya. Puan Maryam seolah-olah melihat dirinya sebagai bayangan seseorang yang cuba dilupakan. "Kalau aku tahu dari kecil sebegini rupa, dah lama aku pijak-pijak kau biar mampus." Kehidupan Izdihar mula berubah apabila dia menemukan sesuatu yang menggetarkan hatinya. Tinggalan masa silam yang diam-diam menuntut perhatian. Sejak itu, Izdihar sedar bahawa ada bahagian dalam hidupnya yang belum pernah benar-benar dia kenal. Dalam perjalanan mencari jawapan, Izdihar mendapati dirinya terperangkap antara kebenaran, konflik keluarga, dan luka silam yang sukar disembuhkan. Tetapi, adakah pencarian ini akan membawanya kepada jawapan yang diinginkan ? Atau, adakah dia hanya sekadar akan tenggelam dalam hujan kenangan yang tidak pernah reda ?