Eighteen years ago, I was born and then I was created with careful stitches to be a son, a brother, a specimen. My decision was made for me; a beautiful boy brought into a haphazard world. I would become used to the long stares, the gloved hands, and the sense of misplacement amongst my peers. I was made in grief and presented to the world as a token boy to fill the legacy of someone else. To all those around me, I was simply a golden boy named Alphie. In secret, I fall out of grace. I grew and I grow, the question of who I actually am always on the forefront of my mind. My body betrays me in the same way it has since birth. I took the pills, I administered the shots, and I did what I was supposed to under the watchful eyes of my parents during the daytime and at night under the gaze of others. When I met Sartaaj, I thought it was the right time, and that he would be the one who delivered me from my worst habits. When my lips found Gemma's, I thought that was the right time, too. Now I unravel years of a secret held close to my chest, the remnants of who I was supposed to be slipping through my fingers. I was Alphie.

When Jack's police record was getting too big for his father to keep bribing the police, a deal was cut in his behalf that sent him away to live with his aunt and start senior year somewhere else. There, he meets Jeovanni. The boy puts efforts into getting to know Jack, efforts that Jack doesn't appreciate. But when he found out Jeovanni was a repeat student for a reason unknown to the whole school, Jack gets intrigued into figuring out why. But, just as the reasons why Jack is the way he is, some secrets aren't made to be unveiled. AUTHOR'S NOTE: This book is a spin-off of one of the characters of my other book "Found", but you don't have to read it in order to understand "Forged Bonds", since both of them are independent stories. Enjoy the reading!

Clownin' n foolin'

rigor samsa: n. a kind of psychological exoskeleton that can protect you from pain and contain your anxieties, but always ends up cracking under pressure or hollowed out by time-and will keep growing back again and again, until you develop a more sophisticated emotional structure, held up by a strong and flexible spine, built less like a fortress than a cluster of treehouses. ★ ★ ★ this book is a collection describing what goes on inside my head; a collection of thoughts whenever my psychogical exoskeleton has been broken down and turned into dust. so expect random sporadic updates. from long thought out chapters, to short, few sentenced writings, this is a book containing everything i have no place for anywhere else. - - - reuploaded in 2023.

COMPLETED [boyxboy] After his religious mother kicks him out for being gay, Elijah Ellis moves in with his father, where his step-mother, step-brother, and half-sister also welcome him. Elijah aspires to continue doing what he loves and play hockey for his new school, but his past hookup with the closeted hockey captain, Fox Ridley, complicates things. While Elijah just wants to get through the season unscathed, Fox is hellbent on hating him. Elijah is unsure whether he will ever overcome Fox's hatred, or if he will remain on thin ice. ~171k words

about a girl who tried to break through the conventional boundaries of 𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲. ongoing {˂} finished {} discontinued {}

In which I fall in love with my brother's best friend. ***** "Don't pretend like you don't feel anything." His voice is low, sending shivers down my spine. "What do you mean?" "You know damn well what I mean." "I don't know what you're talking about." I pretend to ignore him, flipping some pages in my book. "Come on. I have all these assignments waiting. Aren't you supposed to teach me tonight?" "It depends on what you want me to teach." He smirks, his voice sounding even more dangerous. ***** I thought that my brother was the most popular guy in school, but as soon as I step into my university life, I realize how wrong I was. Meet Vaughn Cooper, his best friend. The guy is the epitome of every girl's dream. Godlike handsome. The quarterback. He's got the looks, and he's got the brain. Come on, he's got the scholarship to one of the most prestigious universities in the country, while I have just barely passed the entrance examination after long years of struggle during high school. How could a guy who worked that hard and deserves nothing more but adoration be labeled as a bad boy? Yeah, the answer is simple. The moment we lock eyes, I realize something as I stare into those piercing, amber eyes. He's not every girl's dream. He's every girl's nightmare. In my case, MY nightmare. Calm down, heart. Our story hasn't even started. ***** THE SPENCERS SERIES BOOK #1 © 2020 Anya Jayvyn. All Rights Reserved. (Content warning: This book has descriptive sexual content, explicit language, and triggering themes)