This is not my story because mine ended abruptly. I died kasi. You know, that hassle. This is the story of two people who were very close to my heart but they cannot seem to move on from the pain and the guilt of my passing. Her the pain, him the guilt. They cannot see each other because of me. How can they love? I have not moved on, meaning from this life to where I should be, kasi they are my unfinished business. My bestfriend and my girlfriend should be together. She's stubborn to realize it and he's guilt-ridden to do something about it. I will make it happen. Kung kailangang manakot at magparamdam, gagawin ko makapunta lang ako sa next stage at marealize nila na sila talaga ang dapat na magkasama and I am just someone who happened in their lives for them to meet and love each other forever.

RATED SPG Warning: Not suitable for young readers or sensitive minds. Contains graphic sex scenes, adult language and situation intended for mature readers only.

Nakakabagot ang buhay. Lalo na pag papasok ka nang school, kakain, humiga sa pera, maligo sa puri, mamili ng babae, at matulog. Paulit-ulit lahat araw-araw. Lahat nalaro mo na, poker hanggang pag-ibig naipanalo mo na. Kung sana may pwedeng paglaruan. Yung unique. Yung nakakatuwa. Nang dumating siya sa buhay ko, natuwa ako kasi pinaglaruan ko siya. Humingi siya ng pabor. Binigay ko. Nagpaturo siya. Tinuruan ko. Humingi siya ng masasandalan. Binigay ko. Kasi nakakatuwa siya! Pero habang tumatagal, bakit siya na yung natutuwa at ako na pinaglalaruan? Hate. Lies. Temptations. Betrayal. Pain. Love. All in one. Training To Love.

Why are we so engrossed with the past? With what had happened? Why do we always ask what we did wrong? What went wrong and why can't we go back to resolve it? Diba pwedeng an ex is an ex and the past should stay in the past? Why do we linger kung hindi na nga nag-work? Do we need to prove ourselves? Do we want to appease our ego? Do we really want to give love another try with that person? Kahit hindi na nga nag-work the first time?

We were wrong that I never made right. He hated and left me because of that. We will be wrong again if I don't make things right, this second time. But is he still mad at me or does he still love me for him to make things right between us?

He already had an epic love affair that spanned years. He didn't end up with her though. He's trying to love again... with me... the complete opposite of her perfect woman. I was always the second girl, the second choice. I've worked hard to get things, or people, 'cause nothing comes easy. With guys, I was always a meantime girl. I've never been the main girl. It will be different. I want to claim my love. I want to be the only person he sees. I will make him see me and love me more than he had ever loved his greatest love. Scratch that, I will be his greatest love.

I found him, my escape. He was every bit what I wanted and needed to get out of the stale and abusive relationship that I was in. He too, though, was in a relationship with someone. We were wrong but I have grown to love him. Making things right is not easy, and quick. But I want him when I want him. Loving something wrong has repercussions I know but I will prove that this stolen love will stand the test of time and hindrances that promise to break it.

You don’t start your day knowing what you're going to end up doing the next day. No one holds the future. Even if you have a completely different outlook today about something, your actions about that particular thing might change the next day. Even if you know kung sino ka, even if kilala mo ang sarili mo, minsan kahit manindigan ka, mapupush ka to do something very alien to you. Kasi kahit minsan ayaw mo, curious ka. And since, you don’t know the feeling, since you haven't experienced it, you try something... new. Something that can be against what you know, what you experience, what you believe in. Ma-experience lang. Kahit minsan may repercussions. At kahit minsan may masasaktan. Love is powerful. It’s fleeting, endless and can make you do things that are debatable ba kung worth it o hindi.