you just want what you can't have... tw for depression, eating disorders, drug use, violence + death cover art by @_radioheadstan

In the midst of dealing with a plethora of things, ranging from something as serious as an eating disorder to AP physics, Leilani Carter is forced to introduce herself to Billie O'connell. Memories from her past has left Billie with permanent caution tape around her heart. The dark gray-haired girl tends to do her own thing, subconsciously isolating herself from the rest of the world. Despite countless efforts, no one has been able to figure her out and Billie likes it that way- That is, until she meets Leilani. The pair possessed undeniable chemistry that simply cannot be ignored no matter how hard they tried. Brought together by chance, they become, just two people, taking it one step at a time, trying to help the other heal...

When seventeen-year-old Olivia takes a midnight walk in the downtown streets of la with the intention of taking her own life, she meets someone she never thought she'd ever see again. As Olivia struggles with multiple mental illnesses, Billie and her reconnect after several years. Billie doesn't just save her that night, she helps Liv begin the process of loving life again. Depression Anxiety Eating disorder Self-harm gxg Achieved 🥈 in #billieeilish 🥈 in #gxg 🥇 in #eilish

*sequel to delinquent* most people would take one look at billie o'connell and instantly shake their heads. they would glare at her colored hair, baggy clothes and diamond grillz with disgust. everyone believed she was nothing but trouble. billie believed them too. that was until she stumbled into madelyn. madelyn saw great things in her. things no one else did. she was billie's breath of fresh air. after billie ended up risking her life for madelyn, everything spiraled. billie was back to square one; depressed and misunderstood. will their rocky relationship last? {lowercase intended} {unedited}

-𝒐𝒉 𝒏𝒐, 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔, 𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "We're sending you to boarding school. In America." When Lynx's girlfriend dies, her parents are left with other choice but to send her to boarding school to straighten out her grades. They want her to get over Chelssy's death. Maybe meet someone new. And oh boy, does that happen. Billie. Billie Eilish. The girl notorious for breaking people's hearts without so much as batting an eyelid. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒆 𝒆𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒇𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏- 𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒏𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 1 𝒊𝒏 #𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒆𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒏𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 1 𝒊𝒏 #𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒆

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ꜱᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ʟᴀᴜɢʜ ᴏʀ ꜱᴍɪʟᴇ, ɪɴ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ꜱᴏʀᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴡᴀʏ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴀꜱ ʜʏᴘɴᴏᴛɪᴢɪɴɢ, ʜᴇʀ ɪᴄʏ ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ꜱᴇᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴍᴀɢɴᴇᴛ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ᴋᴇᴘᴛ ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅ ʜᴇʀ. ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴ 50 ᴅᴀʏꜱ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ᴍʏ ᴘʟᴀɴ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴘʀɪᴇꜱ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢꜱ ɢᴏ ꜱᴏʀᴛᴀ ᴏꜰꜰ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ. ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ, ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴ ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴋɪɴᴅᴀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴅ. ɴᴏᴡ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ. ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ʙʏ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ. ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴀᴛᴛᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴇᴀʀᴛʜ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ɪɴ ᴀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ, ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏɴᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄ. -ʟᴏᴡᴇʀᴄᴀꜱᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ

a story in which an unlikely pair gets to know each other. billie o'connell is an infamous delinquent who always has something suggestive to say. madelyn is just a reserved girl who happened to catch her eye. madelyn quickly learns there's more to billie o'connell than just her charming good looks and diamond grill. (A/N: the first two chapters of this began as smut imagines from a previous book, until i decided to turn them into a story of their own) {lowercase intended} (unedited)