I'm not crazy I swear, that's only what they say. It's the pills. It's always the pills they make me take that brings this side of me out. It's impossible to escape though, every time I try, they catch me, every time. I can't remember what the outside world looks like. I hope I find out one day, maybe today. I'm planning to escape and this time I know I'll make it, I know I can, but they don't. They told me I can't do it, that I'm too weak, I won't make it out. But the things I've seen in here will forever give me nightmares. Now's my chance, no ones looking... One... Two... Three...

In reality, the beginning of war is not like the movies. The government doesn’t plague our television screens with propaganda, enticing us to their side. There aren’t rallies in the street, rumours passed from door to door, feared passed through the school classroom. Our family didn’t sit around our table at dinner, expressing our fear and guessing how long it would take for the soldiers to come knocking and forcing people to join the army. None of that. This is my life, I didn’t choose it but you play the hand you get they say.