"Pressure to go strike out on your own Pressure to learn from being alone Pressure to not leave it for too long Before you find another heart where you belong." -Julia Jacklin (Pressure to Party) This book is an au of my other stories, Lividity and Creek Blues. The characters are exactly the same, except they've been to therapy and have a bit more stability in their home lives. It can be read as a stand-alone fic too!

Tyler doesn't fit in. Josh doesn't fit in. Tyler is afraid to go to school. Josh is afraid to go home. Tyler is in honours classes. Josh is in a satanic cult. Those kinds of parallels don't happen for no reason.

"If I believe good wombs have borne bad sons Then I have no qualms using my gun I only love the things that I can hurt" -Nicole Dollanganger (Lividity) ***Massive trigger warnings, so don't read this if you'll feel unsafe.*** **Deleted by Wattpad at 300k, retyped by a host of angels whom I owe my life to

Trigger Warning// Sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind

"i don't need anyone. i just need everyone and then some." - in which tyler is a senior in high-school who's been living on his own for two years and josh is a teacher fresh out of college who's just gotten out of a four-year relationship. - #1 in twentyonepilots 4/18/23 #1 in joshler (again) 10/9/25 ♡

NOT MINE!!! I don't own this story; all credit goes to the original author SoloChaos on ao3 Trigger warning: suicide/sexual abuse/mature content Make sure you have some tissues....