FIRSTLY: it's cringe, my first story and fucked up. That's all. Taeyong and Jaehyun are a happy couple in nct. But after an argument between them Jaehyun decides thet they should take a brake from their relationship. How will Taeyong cope without him? Will the past haunt him? Will dark thoughts engulf him? Will it be too late to save Taeyong from himself? Will he find someone to lean on? Disclaimers: I, unfortunately, do not own nct. Whatever happens in this fanfiction is not real just a part of my angsty imagination and life. I do not think that abuse, mental health isues, bullying are romantic stuff, i do not support any type of these behaviors. Through this book I will be representing a fictional relationship between the boys and im only using their names and status(as singers in a group) as true. The idea of this book and plot is mine and only mine, please do not copy. For translations you can message me. if you are not okay with boyxboy peace out :) ⚠️ trigger warnings ⚠️ Angst Mental health issues Eating disorders Depression Self- harm Mentions of sexual abuse- harassment Suicide Panic and anxiety attacks Abuse Strong language if you are not comfortable with and of the topics mentioned, I suggest you not to read the story. In chapters that are going to be the most triggering ill put a sign ⚠️. SEQUEL: When we go | Jaeyong *will be uploaded soon* Started: 03.16.2021 Ended: 04.12.2021 #39 Taemin ---> 04.13.2021 #1 Johnyong ---> 05.17.2021 #168 Ten ---> 04.13.2021 #193 Jaehyun ---> 04.13.2021 #269 Taeyong ---> 04.13.2021 #268 Johnny ---> 04.13.2021 #140 Donghyuck ---> 04.12.2021 #675 depression ---> 04.13.2021 #96 Jaeyong ---> 06.01.2022

Two guys, two different lives yet, so similar at the end. Too bad they share the same mind. •Hyunchan• This story, is made from me and only from me. I haven't noticed another book with that kind of plot. I would never copy someone's work and ideas. This is a fanfiction, I do not own or know the people demonstrated personally. I'm only using their names, not their status, not their life, not their faces. I only use their names. I'm not getting money out of this and I do not ship them in real life, I am in no way assuming the sexuality of people I don't know. Again, I'm only using their names. If you are homophobic just go.

A Hyunjin centered story. This story, is made from me and only from me. I haven't noticed another book with that kind of plot. I would never copy someone's work and ideas. This is a fanfiction, I do not own or know the people demonstrated personally. I'm only using their names, not their status, not their life, not their faces. I only use their names. I'm not getting money out of this and I do not ship them in real life, I am in no way assuming the sexuality of people I don't know. Again, I'm only using their names. There will not be any sexual stuff in here. If you are homophobic go just don't read #1 heart disease---> 06.01.2022

•Hyunjin centric• ... I do not own the characters. This story does not portray real life events between the characters/ faces/ situations/ relationships / behaviors. The story is inspired by personal experiences. Tw: cancer, symptoms of cancer, death, fainting, vomit, poor health, possible main character death, mental issues, grief .

~In which, life is a blurry line between reality and fantasy~ •Markhyuck• This story, is made from me and only from me. I haven't noticed another book with that kind of plot. I would never copy someone's work and ideas. This is a fanfiction, I do not own or know the people demonstrated personally. I'm only using their names, not their status, not their life, not their faces. I only use their names. I'm not getting money out of this and I do not ship them in real life, I am in no way assuming the sexuality of people I don't know. Again, I'm only using their names. There will not be any sexual stuff in here. If you are homophobic go just don't read. There will be some triggering themes. I do not try to romanticize mental health, I just find writing a nice way to combine reality with fantasy and my fantasy is wild.

Money is the reason we exist. Money is the reason people die too. Sick, twisted minds born into money. Monsters destroying perfect human beings, yet the darkness always saves them. •Johnyong• !trigger warning! This story, is made from me and only from me. I haven't noticed another book with that kind of plot. I would never copy someone's work and ideas. This is a fanfiction, I do not own or know the people demonstrated personally. I'm only using their names, not their status, not their life, not their faces. I only use their names. I'm not getting money out of this and I do not ship them in real life, I am in no way assuming the sexuality of people I don't know. Again, I'm only using their names. If you are homophobic just go.