Read before you start.‼️ ⚠️trigger warnings ⚠️ • Death and violence • child abuse • sexual assault • Attempted murder and murdering • Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) • Abusive parents • suicide 📎 remember to practice self-care before, during, & after reading. ( the book is not edited yet we will edit once the book is finished so i'm sorry if there is some errors) 1 #tom 1 #kaulitztwin 1 #bill 1 #nightmare 1 #kaulitz

It's the lake in November, and the move closer to the ocean, and Gerard's fixation, and Gerard's compulsions like tidal waves dragging him down, and Mikey's more distant than ever: like they're drifting out into the middle of the ocean, whereas Gerard's just stuck there: water turning to quicksand around him, drowning. And it's the letter; Frank finds it on the floor of the boys' bathroom on the first floor. It's dropped in accident, perhaps from a pocket or something, and it's drenched in what Frank hopes is tap water, and the words: scrawled in blue ink are difficult to make out as the words join together in a fuzzy inky mess. The only paragraph legible is the final one, and even still, it barely is: 'I've been underwater for a long time now, but I'm not drowning, I'm beginning to think I can breathe like this, but I can't, I'm gasping for breath, and I have to do this, Mikey, I have to end this myself. I'm going to the lake on the 1st of November, don't wait for me... I'm not coming back.' And the name signed at the bottom is little more than a smudged mess of blue ink, and there's nothing Frank can do about it, but he knows for certain that the one thing he can't do is ignore this letter, and he reminds himself of that as he folds it into his pocket. It's a suicide note, Frank's stupid, but not stupid enough to brush over that fact, and whoever this person is, Frank knows that they most certainly don't deserve to die. And Frank isn't going to let them. Because he's going to find this person; he's got time now at least, and he can save them, he will save them - Frank promises himself that. But one person in a whole school, it's like a needle in a haystack, but he's got time, it's November 1st in thirty days, and he can only hope that it will be enough. He's got one month: the date is October 1st.

Lucian Lancaster is known as one of the most feared mafia bosses in all of Europe. Everywhere he goes, security follows, he has zero weaknesses and feels no remorse for anybody. One of the many reasons why it was so hard to find a weak stop to overthrow him in any way. Except one weakness, his daughter. Juliette has been kept a secret, hidden from the public eye who her father truly was. For her safety, as well as her father's reputation. 19 years she has been forced to lie that father died in a car accident. In constant battle, Lucian and his great enemy, Tom kaulitz, fight to be the most vile they could be. To prove to be the most cruel and dangerous, in order to learn the secrets and weaknesses of Tom Kaulitz, Lucian forces his daughter to go under the wing of Tom, to spy. Nobody would ever known her real identity, there no record of her fathers true identity as well, or so Lucian thought. Juliette and Tom had absolutely nothing in common, she despised him and her father. But what will happen when Juliette realizes she had fallen for her own father's enemy? What will Tom think when he finds out the truth about Juliette? What about when Juliette finds out about toms true intentions? read to find out...

This is the continuation to the books "My Living Nightmare" and "A Beautiful Lie" by @winternightz so if you haven't read those books there's no point in reading this. (You can find them in my reading list) Just like the other two books, this one also has sensitive content. So many people are mad that the book gets no more updates (same) so I decided to continue this story I will try to write in the style of @winternightz but of course I won't always be able to do it 100% the same since it's not my own story. And my very last info for you is english is not my first language so don't be too hard on me. Enjoy reading :)