Adam Hirdy | Azalea **TRIGGER WARNING** READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED. This story may be upsetting for some readers, as it explores themes of mental illness and trauma. It also includes sensitive content such as sexual assault, violence, kidnapping, murder, self-harm, and suicide. If any of these topics are triggering for you, please consider skipping those parts or stop reading altogether.

For younger me, who wanted to be someone's first choice.