Ash and Eiji throughout the recovery and exploration of their relationship. Each is inspired by poems selected from r.h. Sin's 'a beautiful composition of broken' Can also be found on Ao3 under my username Bounteous

'Beneath his dangling feet, the drop is far and the ground is hard, cracked concrete. The worn soles of his Chuck Taylor's would provide little relief. The laces would snap at his ankles in the wind and the red would be but a blur in motion.' 'It's okay, though, really. Nobody needs to know him well, anymore. There's nothing spectacular to offer. It's better this way. Better for people to not know him and leave him be than know him and hate him.' 'It's as if the world is holding its breath, preparing for the creation of their future relationship. Like this moment, depending upon Ash's decision, is a precipice. A catalyst. The tipping point for all change to occur. Ash feels it in his gut. His heart. He wonders if Eiji does, too.' ~~~ They meet and suddenly the world feels a whole lot different. Can also be found on Ao3 under my username Bounteous

This story takes place at their second year in Izumo when Ash will turn 20. They're a couple for around 1.5 years and happy. But for Eiji his promise of forever means until death separates them. For Ash, however, it means until Eiji will leave him. He only knows abandonment and is convinced Eiji will leave him, too, after some time. All the people he loved did the same, after all. Ash tells Eiji not to celebrate his birthday since his existence caused endless deaths and celebrating it feels wrong to him. Eiji is sad about that request but still promises him that they won't celebrate it and Ash assumes the issue is solved. Knowing Eiji's stubbornness, however, he should have known better... Instead of celebrating, Eiji gives him a present by taking him on a little trip and teaching him what unlimited freedom feels like. And that isn't all. At dusk, Eiji plans to ask Ash something that will forever change their lives. Something he meticulously planned for months... Will Eiji's plan succeed? A story about pure freedom, a promise and undeniable proof of Eiji's love that surprises Ash.

An alternative ending where Eiji saves Ash at the last minute before bleeding out. Since he's powerless in a wheelchair he has help, of course.

When Ash wakes up on his birthday, Eiji is already gone, so Ash thinks Eiji has forgotten his birthday. But would Eiji really forget his birthday? Eiji had always told him that it's important to celebrate dates like these, that he had been reborn and had been given a second chance, a new life with him in Japan. He had promised him he would always make this day unforgettable and special for him... So why has Eiji not planned anything for his birthday? Eiji has no poker face, so surely Ash would have noticed something? What's even worse, Ash had accidentally taken over a shift at the café on his birthday and couldn't cancel it again. Will Ash still be able to celebrate his birthday with Eiji? And how will everything turn out?

This is a story where I publish Banana Fish one shots that I write or come up with spontaneously. They are not related to each other but stand alone.