EDITED VERSION "Your eyes... those beautiful, sharp, dark brown eyes, your gaze so cold contrary to how your mere presence made my consciousness slowly melt away. I am glad we have gotten close. I constantly want to close the gap between us, I want to make up for the loneliness and grieve you felt in your childhood, the way that you get so ecstatic about small, cute things like a child destroys me because I knew, I knew how it felt to have your childhood stripped away from you and I knew that his "immaturity" was just a way of coping. Even if we didn't talk much, we understood each other. I love you Jin Rulan." Most characters are creations of Mo Xiang Tong Xiu.