Shawn, a Midwest girl, is in Los Angeles for creative writing school only. One afternoon when words fail her, she finds herself on a blanket... sketching Billie Eilish. She's been a fan for years of this seemingly perfect artist. Will she still be a fan as she explores her flaws, and exposes her own?

When I met her, I fell in love with her smile. With her laugh, which she gave so free and loud, or soft and breathy in my ear. I'd fallen in love with her hands as they traced the air in front of my favorite paintings. With her fingertips as they braided her soft black hair. I'd fallen in love with her icy blue eyes, the dimple in her cheek, the smell of her spicy sweet perfume at the hollow of her throat, poisonous to me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lucy Stewart is a textile artist in love with art of all kinds, but especially those that play on dark emotions. While sitting in a museum one evening, one of her very favorite such artists steps into her life. Together, they will create an art form neither of them have yet to experience alone... **New parts published on Wednesdays and Saturday's** CONTAINS: graphic consensual sex, language, kink Trigger warnings will be listed at the top of each chapter (there won't be many)

World tours, TV shows, deadlines, millions of fans, anxiety, depression, they're just a few things Billie has to worry about. But when she meets your not so typical college computer nerd, can she help ease her burdens? CEO of awful description's. Gxg, g!p, #bottombillie #1 in billieeilish #4 in girlxgirl #1 in Gay And more than I can't be bothered typing.

In a recent interview, tired and mentally drained, world renowned music artist, Billie Eilish recalls being "lost in the darkness" as she rose to fame. Although Billie is hesitant to admit it aloud, the soft-spoken Czech interviewer sees right through her and believes that period of her life never truly ended. Haven been quickly emotionally attached, Billie can't seem to stay away from the older woman and has yet to figure out why...

In the midst of dealing with a plethora of things, ranging from something as serious as an eating disorder to AP physics, Leilani Carter is forced to introduce herself to Billie O'connell. Memories from her past has left Billie with permanent caution tape around her heart. The dark gray-haired girl tends to do her own thing, subconsciously isolating herself from the rest of the world. Despite countless efforts, no one has been able to figure her out and Billie likes it that way- That is, until she meets Leilani. The pair possessed undeniable chemistry that simply cannot be ignored no matter how hard they tried. Brought together by chance, they become, just two people, taking it one step at a time, trying to help the other heal...

third installment to 'wish you were gay' and 'made for you' will billie and leilani be able to manage what life throws at them after they are separated again?

Gillian was not a stranger to hardships and difficult choices. From the death of her father, to an unexpected pregnancy, she continued to tread through life with her head held high- or perhaps that was just the facade she wanted everyone else to see. Broken and insecure, at fault of her boyfriend, Gillian finds loving herself to be a difficult task. But when a new face appears in her explicit place of work, she's finally shown life can be sweet, rather than unforgiving and bitter. (G!P)

Rowan, a girl of a coy and passive nature, did not expect to be flung into someone else's life so abruptly- and graphically at that. It could have been anyone, but for a reason unknown to her, the universe chose her. The life she stepped into belonged to another girl, that to Rowan's dismay, was unaware of how prized of a possession she truly was. She did not value every breath she took or even the supple skin on her body. But her helpless soul was not to blame. Billie struggled with a list of issues doctors of all kinds were unable to diagnose. Everyday was a fight against her conscience and she feared, a day would come in which she would lose. In a way, the pair were star-crossed. Rowan knew the severity of Billie's situation and her undeniable inability to be helped, but still, she could never forgive herself if she had turned a blind eye and walked away after that single, dark and rainy night. She often questioned whether or not her actions were fueled by an honorable sense of selflessness or its much more complicated counterpart- selfishness.

The average person is led to believe college junior, Billie O'Connell lacks commitment, manners and even morals in some cases. The 21 year-old frequently tends to spend her time at parties, doing drugs of limited kind, or participating in hook-up culture. Her character is challenged one Monday morning at a cross walk, when a cane hits her leg. That cane just so happened to belong to Julia Morales, a younger woman currently learning to cope with losing her vision. Hesitant at first, Billie opens her heart and joins Julia in her journey. (G!P)