"Oh I'm in love with you, and you will never know"

Phil is a poor boy forced to marry another man. He's not very healthy and he's very anxious to be the husband of a rich man. The constant cloud of suicide and anxiety follows Phil Lester everywhere he goes and he struggles to fit into his new life. It's a good thing this man he marries is a good man and eventually Phil falls in love. 2019 edit- TRIGGER WARNING, CUTTING AND STUFF WARNING- 9 YEAR DIFFERENCE cover credit to- @AnnekaCannon

Dan Howell is constantly bullied. And he knows better than to tell someone because what he would get in return wouldn't solve anything. All he needed was a friend. But what if that friend turns out to be a teacher? And what if the feelings for that teacher get more passionate than planned? xx

A boy raised around religion and the discounts for sin, Phil Lester is definitely not one to go around looking for trouble. With his father being the vicar of their local church, Phil has a lot to live up to and has to keep his reputation high if he's to be accepted. He doesn't do parties or drinking; the thought of sex alone is enough to terrify him. So it's no wonder that when Dan Howell, a boy who embraces the life of parties and rebellious acts, shows up to join the church program, Phil starts having trouble keeping himself sane as he tries to teach Dan the path to God. But, religion isn't the thing on Dans mind and he seems to find himself a new toy to play with. [warning: this does contain violence and mature content (as shown) and there's a lot on the topic of homosexuality and negative views towards it from characters in the story. Please read on with care <3]