BOOK ONE Coming out was supposed to set Julian free. Instead, it left him with a broken arm, a mother who won't stop preaching, and a silence that grows heavier every day. High school feels like a cage, and Julian is certain he doesn't belong anywhere-until Paul crashes into his world. With his inked skin, effortless charm, and a following that makes him untouchable, Paul should be the last person Julian lets close. But in Paul's arms, Julian feels something he's never known before: safe. As their connection deepens, so does the danger. Loving Paul means risking exposure, rejection, and heartbreak all over again. Worse, it means facing the cruelest voice of all-the one inside Julian's own head. Tender, raw, and unflinching, Open is a story about first love, first heartbreak, and finding the courage to believe you're worthy of both. ::: I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.

Niall and Harry's relationship continues to blossom and suffer as the end of their high school years and a promising summer vacation come closer and closer. © brianna lauren 2014

Harry's career is only going up and Niall is slowly leaving Harry's list of main priorities until he vanishes entirely. Whether Harry can win him back or not is fully up to him. © brianna lauren 2014

he was the savior i didn't know i needed; the man who showed me i'm worth more than who i think i am. he came on too strong, and i ran. but i didn't know i was running from the best thing that ever happened to me. © brianna lauren 2015 [second place winner in the 2015 summer bromance awards, the 2015 holiday bromance awards & the bromance awards]

Niall's letters to Harry, Harry's letters to Niall, and what is to become of them afterwords. © brianna lauren 2014

Liam And Niall Are Both At Home And Safe... But Are They Happy? When Liam Finds Something Shocking Out About Niall He Does His Best To Stop It But Is It To Late? (In Band) (Hints Of Larry)

This is a sequel to Larry? I think you mean Narry. When Kris leaves and Liam and Louis hit a rough patch will their relationships be able to hold on? Niall and Harry are in the highlight of their relationship but will it stay sunny? Narry can't stay strong while the others are so weak. Will the band be able to pull off a wedding or is the stress to much?

Harry Edward Styles + Niall James Horan = Narry Storan, god i feel like a 14 year old girl, but i do like the sound of that, Narry? Hmm, If only Niall James Horan knew how much I, Harry Edward Styles, was in love with him. Would things change? would he hate me? would he love me? I dont know, and im scared to find out. Will the other members of One Direction interfere? what will the fans think? All i know is that my head and my heart are about to explode!