this book contains : - mostly billie eilish (like every single chapter except a few) - my more recent (better written) chapters - short stories - small short scenarios and imagines - wlw action - graphic descriptions - lots and lots of lesbian sex guys sooo.... #1 in conflict 28/12/22 😧 #5 in conflict agggain 28/04

"take my hand, look at me and just breath" "billie i cant it hurts my chest is hurting"

i just want to love you, why won't you let me?

"you don't think i'm weird because of my tourette's?"

Billie rises fast inside an unforgiving industry, her life expanding until there is no space left to be private. Fame does not save her. Every feeling is louder, everything more visible, every moment lived under watch. She learns how to perform strength while carrying a darkness she refuses to name, terrified that if she lets it surface, it will consume her. The world keeps asking for more of her, even as she is quietly unraveling. Nat remains behind, rooted in a place that never opens for her. Stripped of choice and opportunity, she clings to her creativity as proof that she still exists. Her life is small, quiet, and heavy. She survives by disappearing inward, haunted by the sense that something essential has already passed her by. Around her neck hangs a key, a symbol of what she has always believed she was waiting for, though she no longer knows what door it belongs to, or if it will ever open. Years later, when their lives intersect again, love does not arrive as salvation. It arrives as tension. As longing. As fear. Their connection becomes both refuge and risk, forcing them to confront the parts of themselves they've learned to hide. Together, there is desire, guilt, shame, and the terrifying realization that loving someone does not mean you know how to stay alive for them. TRIGGER WARNING🔐 heavy sexual themes various mentions of: sh, suicide ideation, truama, depression, etc. Slow burn, friends to lovers, gxg.

Isabella was drowning in pain, stuck in a cycle she couldn't escape. Then came Billie. Beautiful, wild, unexpected. One night changed everything. But some scars run too deep... And saving each other might destroy them both. Achievements 🥇 #billieeilishsmut 🥇 #billie 🥇 #lesbian 🥇 #hmhas 🥇 #freaky 🥇 #pushandpull 🥇 #losangeles 🥈 #billieeilishfanfic 🥈 #billieeilish 🥈 #girls 5 #billiesmut

Eleanor never planned on getting pulled into the music industry's chaos-she just planned on surviving hiding her true passion. But when her dad becomes the new manager for rising pop phenomenon Billie Eilish, everything in her quiet, predictable life flips overnight. Tour buses. Rehearsals. Backstage corridors that smell like perfume and adrenaline. And Billie herself. What starts as obligation becomes connection. What starts as silence becomes something louder than either of them can ignore. Or that falling for a girl who lives inside a spotlight won't burn everything down. - Top ranks- #1 in #billieeilish on 12/16/25 #1 in billieeilishoconnell on 12/16/25 #1 in billieeilishmusic on 12/16/25 #1 in dsam on 12/25/25 #2 in billieeilishpiratebairdoconnell on 12/16/25 #2 in hmhas on 12/25/25

Being on a world tour is nothing new for Billie Eilish. But when her old manager gets fired, and Harper-sharp, stunning, and maddeningly professional-steps in, things start to feel... different. Harper's rule is simple: no mixing business with pleasure. But Billie's charm, wit, and raw vulnerability chip away at Harper's walls. And Billie? She's falling too-but fear, fame, and forbidden feelings make it hard to breathe. In a world full of cameras, pressure, and packed schedules, how do you stay professional when your heart's off-script?

"I hate those words," "But why?" "Because I've never loved anyone the way I love you..." - Will have smut, drugs and alcohol, abuse, and assault warnings. Includes foul language and suggestive behavior. - Started: 07/12/2024 Finished: 08/24/2024

Finished Oct 2025! She mastered her album. Billie mastered her heart. A slow-burn, emotionally tangled love story between Billie Eilish and the sound engineer who tried not to fall for her. Betrayal, late-night confessions, a cat named Walter and the question posed by Schlink 'Can love survive the unforgivable?'