de·pres·sion dəˈpreSH(ə)n/ noun * feelings of severe despondency and dejection. |-/ {Trigger warning- suicidal thoughts, self-harm, mature language, and violence} >Edited<

Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness. ---------------------------- This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.

Levi x Depressed Reader Tw: intense description of self harm and rape. If you're triggered by these themes please read with caution. *Strong Sexual Content* **All characters are aged up! Y/N, Eren, Mikasa, Armin etc are in their mid 20's. Levi is in his 30's** Original Story: Y/N has grown up with a dark past of abuse in the underground. Now a part of the scout regimen, they are struggling with SH, Depression, as well as intense pressure from Captian Levi, the Commanders, and their Peers. When horrors of their past, violence and confusing relationships test them, y/n turns to the one thing that quiets the voices in their head.... what happens when people find out. Will y/n find the help they need... *story doesnt really follow original AOT story, some original events may be mentioned* Warning: course language, mature themes, sexual content. TW: Self harm, depression, SA, rape, abuse, blood

nemesism (n.): frustration, anger, or aggression directed inward toward oneself and one's way of living ~~~~ Spencer Reid has never had it easy. He struggles with obsessive-compulsive disorder and autism on a daily basis, masking at work so his colleagues don't see him as weak. It seemed like an impenetrable plan; pretend at work, hide his true identity. But after years of bottling up emotions, he picked up several unhealthy coping mechanisms. Not long after he became clean from Dilaudid, he returned to his oldest-learned mechanism; self-harm. Spencer simply replaced one addiction with another. After several weeks of worrying behavior and an especially triggering case, Derek Morgan ends up driving Spencer back to his apartment. He asks to stay the night to make sure his friend would be okay, and Spencer regrettably agrees. And then his whole world is turned upside-down. ~~~~ This story could be very triggering and includes graphic scenes of self-harm along with suicidal ideation, depression, ocd, ptsd, nightmares, meltdowns + sensory overload, and generally very heavy themes, so please read with caution. ~~~~ cross-posted on ao3, same username updates are sporadic as I am in college right now, but I have all intentions to finish this story!