DISCLAIMER ~ this fanfic does contain various things that could be triggering, such as self harm, suicidal thoughts, attempts, blood, bullying etc. Please be aware of this. Things in life aren't going so well for you. You find yourself in a position where you just want it all to end. You're abused at home, abused at school, and you don't feel safe anywhere. Although things were that way, Bill Kaulitz, your bully's twin brother, helped you through. But somehow it made it worse, as in it began to make multiple feelings exchange.

Karolin Meyer, a 17 year old girl, is a member of a band named TOKIO HOTEL. She's a best friend with Bill Kaulitz and a friend with Tom. There is one thing that only Bill knows: She's madly in love with Tom since 2nd grade. But Tom doesn't seem to feel the same way towards her. Or at least she thinks.. Plus every girl wants him and he's a player that can get each of them for one night and she doesn't want to be one of them. She knows the Kaulitz twins since birth. Their mothers used to be best friends. Why used? Karolin's mother died in a car accident two month ago. She always used to be happy but since then she lost her happiness. She tries to hide it and acts happy but her father started drinking and her older sister, Amelia, who is her biggest support is planning on moving away with her boyfriend of 10 years. Will she ever be happy again? ⚠️self harm, anorexia, some smut, abuse⚠️ Friends to lovers ENJOY!