Dan Howell is a timid boy, who always does as he is told. He was once friends with Phil Lester, the 'bad influence' who soon ditches Dan for the popular group in Year 7. After five years of not talking to each other, they're partnered in a project and Phil's wants to win Dan over just like he has with most of their year. But yet, Dan is determined to find out what Phil is hiding behind his arrogant mask.

((Spoilers are bad mmkay)) ((Possible TW))

Everything was like a puzzle that had yet to be put together. It was like all the pieces were there, but you didn't know where to connect them and how they fit in. Dan was the puzzle, and I wanted to know how to solve it.

PREQUEL TO "ALIVE" (While Alive is a phanfiction, this story features no Phan (no Dan at all actually) and mostly original characters. While many of them are named after real people, none of the characters in this story are based on real personalities or circumstances at all. This is an entirely original, fictional work. [You don't have to ship Phan or be in any fandoms to enjoy this story. You can read it before, during, or after reading Alive and it won't really make a difference. You can read this and not Alive or Alive and not this. it doesn't really matter. However, if you do read this and Alive this will provide a lot of context for things mentioned in that fic.] Okay that was a lot of information lets get to the description.) DESCRIPTION: Diana, Jamie, Sophie, PJ, Chris, and Phil are six best friends determined to make the best short film any thirteen-and-fourteen-year-olds have ever made. But things get complicated when puberty and hormones start to take over their lives, bringing romance, peer pressure, and that oh-so-important desire to fit in right along with them. TW: mentions of self-harm and depression, partes, social anxiety, sadness THERE'S MOSTLY HAPPY STUFF THOUGH LOTS OF HAPPY STUFF DONT LET THE TW SCARE YOU AWAY <3

cover by AmazingSkylar - TRIGGER WARNING - automutilation and attempted suicide.

***GirlXGirl Romance*** Living in New York you learn to keep up with the quick pace of the city, myself included. I was never the one to stop and smell the roses, but that was until I met her on that dull September afternoon. Her eyes were light and dark at the same time, as if a devil and an angel lived inside of her. Time itself had stopped, and since that day everything had changed, ever since I had crossed paths with Drew Wilder.

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

Phil is a poor boy forced to marry another man. He's not very healthy and he's very anxious to be the husband of a rich man. The constant cloud of suicide and anxiety follows Phil Lester everywhere he goes and he struggles to fit into his new life. It's a good thing this man he marries is a good man and eventually Phil falls in love. 2019 edit- TRIGGER WARNING, CUTTING AND STUFF WARNING- 9 YEAR DIFFERENCE cover credit to- @AnnekaCannon

Blue is the prettiest color, isn't it? (an: this book is utter shit but for some reason people like it so it would be wrong to delete it )

This is a collection of true stories from me and poems that I bother to share. Enjoy I guess. Trigger warning: Depression, Anxiety, Cutting, Broken hearts