sheaproudsimp
!!tw(ed, sa, sh, toxic relationship, mental disorders etc.)!! [] 21+
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... When a guy approached you, a tall, arrogant, loud, annoying and charismatic clown freak whom asked you out within a day of knowing you, being obviously out of your mind, you said yes to.
When you saw him you knew straight away, he was a living and breathing walking red flag, going around doing sketchy shits. He was here to use you. Use you for something you don't know, but he was here to use you.
Whatever it was. It doesn't really matter, you thought.
You thought maybe if you get this guy to be as loud and as obnoxious as he was maybe this void you feel everyday would be filled with something at least.
Annoyance or repulsed, at this point any emotion will do.
You needed to feel something.
You needed to feel something so you let him into your life. Let him think and do as he pleases while you quietly also takes benefits.
The more you're around him the more you could feel, how bad the relationship actually was, but maybe this was what people call self-sabotage.
Knowing the immense damage something could give you and still willingly keeps it around, that's when you knew, you've lost it completely.
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Uploaded: 02.12.2023