❝ it's more complex than it ought to be. ❞ lowercase intended copyrighted | lynn ferrer | two thousand & fifteen

❝You invaded my heart like a storm in the sea, But you left me with waves and broke the barriers in me, I looked for you till blindness overwhelmed my eyes, Did you not care about turning - replying to my cries...❞ [ A Wattpad Featured Story Highest ranking - #3 in poetry ] ❝All poems could be words but not all words could be poems❞ [ Cover by: @Hornsofarebel ]

❝ poetry is a beautiful way of expressing feelings - happy, sad, angry, caring. it's also a way that we share with other people, to help them with those feelings - mattie stepanek ❞ credit for cover: @forthemadones All Rights Reserved © Lola A - 2020

Sometimes my voice dies in my throat, buries itself beneath waves of crippling suffocation, burns itself out as cold hands tear at my laced skin. I have smiled while my eyes have cried and pleaded, my wrists numb, my lips wobbling and blue, and stars escaping this dark night that I'm trapped in. I long for a darkness that gives way to light. But I do feel the warmth of petals gathering and scattering in my cold bones, and imagine the touch and the sweetness of a kiss, and my heart rises to the surface of this sea and finds a sky painted by passing artists remaining far above our heads. I'm breathing out all the words I've kept locked under the pages of my breaking mind. And by doing so, I'm going to heal. TRIGGER WARNINGS: depression, anxiety, self harm, suicidal thoughts, OCD, panic attacks

[Completed] In a world where a tattoo decides your fate, Noelle Oakley is destined to find her soulmate. When dealing with trauma and the death of her parents, she is stuck between holding on and letting go. From managing with her anxiety, to finding a twist from her family's past, all seems lost in her life. However with the help of new friends, is she able to overcome her fear and finally find her soulmate? This book has been created by Samantha Sykes, (SammiBSykes), no copying is allowed {No one is allowed to copy/ paste this work and say it as their own} Warning: not suitable for young viewers, this book may contain strong language and semi-mature scenes.

Soooo, this is not really going to be a story. It will be a collection of poems and quotes I like. The writing will mostly be in English but occasionally in German. Lastly, (just as a heads up) these poems do not have a certain structure, or for that matter a structure at all, they are really just relatable feelings. Some are feelings I've experienced and some are just common feelings, that I think a lot of people struggle with. So ya... Without further ado lets get started!

This is based on a real-life story, and you see, that's even more painful ;( Trying to move on is what all my friends would say and nudge me. Is it really over? Because I know there are many unanswered questions in my head that still bother me, if only he were to read this...