With every pound gained and lost, With each turn in the mirror, With all the tears dropped and dried, You slowly lose grasp of who you truly are.

essays and conversations (#1 in prose - 12.06.25) (#1 in essay - 29.09.25) (#1 in thoughts - 23.03.26)

love and loss and language ･:*:･ﾟ☆ no. 1 in poetry june 18, 2019

walls have ears to hear the fear behind my voice.

‎backward chapter.

This was not written for somebody who left me. This was written for somebody whom I left. I am the one that walked away... And you, my reader, are the one left in a middle of a relationship. This is my direct words to you to get over me.

"I love you. I love you to death. I love you through death. Whatever it is, I will always love you for you were once a dream far too great to cradle and all I could do was pine and grovel but now that my sun of fate has shone, you're by my side, in my arms. Smiling." A collection of essays. © chemicalkrackel 250323 1:23

should we leave?

When Christmas comes to the sleepy town of Hillbury, so does a love letter for Holly Ambrose - a love letter from a secret admirer. Amidst the yuletide balls and Christmas cheer of Victorian England, Holly vows to uncover the source of the letter, but will the self-avowed intellectual fall in love in the process? This Yuletide novella is twelve chapters long, with a chapter posted each day until Christmas beginning on Sunday the 14th. It's just a little christmas present to all my wonderful Wattpad friends.

𝗨𝗡𝗡𝗢𝗧𝗜𝗖𝗘𝗗 𝗕𝗥𝗨𝗡𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘 ∖ ∖ ∖ 𓏲 | ٫٫ this is my ongoing poetry book. i hope it finds a special place in your heart. i will be as consistent as i am inspired. sometimes it's years in between me writing poetry, other times it's hours. either way thanks for stopping by. ⑅ ♡̶ ៸៸ ︵ . . ︿ ︿ this book will have : 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘺 𝘮𝘦 (melanie, aka smallstrawbeary). 𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘮, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘺𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸! (𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘧𝘧 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵, 𝘪 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵. 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨.) ∖ ∖ ∖ 𝗕𝗥𝗨𝗡𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘 𝗨𝗡𝗡𝗢𝗧𝗜𝗖𝗘𝗗