alexithymia subclinical phenomenon involving a lack of emotional awareness or, more specifically, difficulty in identifying and describing feelings and in distinguishing feelings from the bodily sensations of emotional arousal . . . "𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘪𝘯; 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘥" "𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦?" [inspired by ahn's brother in He is Psychometric] + mafia au 🎖#1 - huangrenjun 🎖#1 - leehaechan 🎖#1 - leeten 🎖 #1 - leetaeyong 🎖 #1 - nakamotoyuta

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮ dysthymia /dɪsˈθʌɪmɪə/ persistent mild depression ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯ ───── ❝ alexithymia 2 ❞ ───── "the eclipse of our relationship was just history. you don't belong in a world where our eyes are plagued with war and our body's are created from selfishness" "if war was the sun and reputation was the ground, let harmony be the sky. and when the night falls, let the stars become our audience and the moon our protector." "and after the sun rises...will it be chaos all over again?" in which the the two rekindle for a fight against morals + mafia gang au + sequel to alexithymia

set in the (historically inaccurate) 18th century "Darling, even with a mask on, your eyes gives yourself away" Tonight, let us dance under the chandelier and waltz with our hands pressed together. May our feet take us down a flowery path and our arms begin the elegant symphony. We shall end our masquerade with a bow and soon, our mask will fall. in which a prince falls in love with the woman behind the gold mask. + royalty au + hidden identity au + enemies to lovers

"you protect this country, and i'll protect you" in which a firefighter who must protect this world, falls for a doctor who would do anything to protect him. + love at first sight + enemies to lovers

"I can not love myself, cause you're my habit to me" In which a criminologist is after a serial killer 'ace of spades' joined by the help of a forensic science specialist. Huang Renjun ff

» crime au ❝ You mean nothing to me, never will. ❞

» Mafia/Gang au » "I told you not to fall for me."

💉ʏᴏᴜ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜɪʀsᴛʏ💉 vampire au!

Ft. NCT's Na Jaemin There were two rules: 1. Never wander the dark streets alone at night. 2. If you see a person wearing a black leather jacket with a golden phoenix on the back, you better turn around and run, and don't even think about looking back. Rules are not meant to be broken, they keep everything in order. "Let the fire burn to ash and let the phoenix rise." Book 3 in The Phoenixes Series COMPLETED

Ft. NCT's Huang Renjun There were two rules: 1. Never wander the dark streets alone at night. 2. If you see a person wearing a black leather jacket with a golden phoenix on the back, you better turn around and run, and don't even think about looking back. When you're outside the sideline, you're not important anymore. Just the secondary character to everyone else's story. "Let the fire burn to ash and let the phoenix rise." Book 4 (Final Book) in The Phoenixes Series COMPLETED