☆ DISCLAIMER: This is my first short story and I'm open to feedback! Let me know what y'all think! Thank you :) ☆ ⚠️TW: There are scenes of heavy drug usage, mental instability and r*pe. There will be tw's before each chapter starts that include it. If it's too triggering, please skip through!⚠️ Eden Silver just graduated high school in Pacifica, California and decides to enroll in her local community college. Last year, Eden had a traumatic moment involving her bipolar disorder that altered her life completely. As she navigates through her past trauma, she meets Auden Blake who seems to share similar experiences with her. As Eden tries to make better decisions for herself, certain people and situations seem to make her fall back into her bad habits. As she spirals out of control, she finds herself at rock bottom and needs to completely restart. This is a story of a young girl who deals with trauma in every aspect of her life. You see Eden grow and find out what true love and support looks like. This short story highlights mental health and how to navigate through life with your current circumstances.

"she liked to puke up everything she ate." *trigger warning* if you are a recovering bullimic/anorexic or have any sort of issues related to abnormal eating habits, this is your warning. you're reading at your own risk. this is purely a work of fiction. any resemblance to anyone, living or dead is purely coincidental. the characters are fictional and of my own imagination. the place, time and incidents are purely fictional. copyright 2018 to @stayinghome

❝𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙜𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮'𝙨 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙙 𝙤𝙛. 𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥. 𝙇𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙩. 𝙑𝙪𝙡𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚. 𝙃𝙪𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙. 𝙂𝙪𝙞𝙡𝙩𝙮. 𝙎𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙. 𝘼𝙣𝙜𝙧𝙮. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙮 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙖 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙤 𝙞𝙩 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣.❞ Control. That's all Brylee wants. Control of her mind. Her weight. Her life. She may have a slightly unhealthy relationship with food, but she's fine. At least, that's what she tells herself. Then he comes along - the one she swore she would never let in again. His mind is an enigma. But maybe he's not as bad as she thought. Or maybe he's even worse, she can't decide. As their senior year progresses, secrets become harder to keep in the dark. She's losing control. And so is he. But sometimes losing control is a good thing.

Lilith Johnson-to the world, she is perfect. An A+ student, cheer captain of her high school, and born into wealth, she is the girl everyone wants to be. But beneath the flawless façade, she is drowning. Struggling with an eating disorder she refuses to acknowledge, she hides her pain behind a mask of perfection. No one sees the cracks. No one suspects a thing. Then there's Zain Tucker-her brother Eli's best friend. Once, Zain and Lilith were inseparable, but everything changed after one fateful incident. He began to hate her, and in turn, the friendship between her and Eli crumbled. As Eli rebelled against their parents' expectations, Lilith remained the golden child, only widening the gap between them. Zain despised her for it. His parents never stopped comparing him to her, always saying, Be more like Lilith. And so, he did the only thing he could-he resented her with everything he had. But what happens when he realizes she's not as perfect as he always believed? And what happens when Lilith can no longer keep up the act?

𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐦𝐧 𝐌𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧 is 17 years old, who is from London, and is forced to move to Canada with her abusive father. She's been through so much throughout her childhood with her mother deserting her at 6, her dad becoming abusive ever since - and blaming her for it - having fake friends, and her biggest secret being revealed, which caused her life to come crushing down. All she wants to do is be free from the abuse, find happiness, make friends and doesn't have to pretend all the time. But new life, new school, and new people means no one can know who she really is...right? ❥ 𝐆𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐌𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 is 17 years old and is the typical high school arrogant boy, who cares about no one but himself and his reputation being the captain of the schools ice hockey team. He sleeps around, gets into fights, and causes a new problem every day. No one dares to approach him because that's basically planning your death wish. But what happens when Autumn comes along and does what no one dares to do? He's intrigued by her and can see in her eyes that she holds a dark past and isn't who he thought she is. He's hooked by her charms but he never chases girls, girls chase him. Will he save her and fall in love for the first time? Or will he try to keep his reputation and not ruin it over some girl...? - - - ⊗ TW! ⊗ This story includes depression, anxiety, ptsd, abuse, self harm, suicide, sexual assault, rape, eating disorders, strong language, drugs, alcohol fighting, violence, homophobia and sex.