If only you knew that every insult hurts, maybe even more than every hit. If only you knew that every emotion - even the smallest of them - coming from you, mean so much to me. If only you knew that my life isn't as great as everyone thinks, that everyday I come to school with a fake smile on my face. If only you knew that my heart yearns for you, even though I know I can't have you. If only you knew that I have a hidden love for you, that wants to break free, ignoring the risks. If only you knew that I'm not the person I pretend to be. If only you knew. Louis has always bullied Harry, ever since he can remember. It's not his fault, really. He just wants to see the emotions on Harry's usually blank face when he hurts him. He takes pleasure in it. But what happens when Harry stands up for himself for once? What happens when Louis decides that maybe, just maybe, hurting Harry is wrong? Six different stories, all thinking the same thing: If Only You Knew.

The one in which Niall dreams about Zayn, Harry might be in love with Louis, and Liam tries really hard to keep them all going.

Self Harm is an addiction. An eating disorder is a constant demon in your mind. Depression is something you don't just 'move on' from, it's constantly there. Having to fight the constant triggers around him, Niall Horan is slowly lapsing back into his depression. The strong urges are constantly there, and even having a boyfriend as perfect as Zayn Malik doesn't seem to be helping. He knows he SHOULD be happy, but he isn't, and he thinks he's forgot how to be 'happy'. and he's battling this alone while trying to hide it from his boyfriend. Sooner or later it'll all get to much and he'll end up back where he started.