when louis finally comes home, harry isn't waiting. over the past four years, both of their lives have completely changed -- but maybe the feelings are still the same. (or: harry is an anxious uni student with an abusive boyfriend and louis is a famous musician, but at one point, they were just two high schoolers in love.) [November 2020-December 2020] word count: 75,000 words trigger warnings: abusive relationship, rape, smut (daddy kink), anxiety/panic attacks, other minor violence

Louis, an upper year Residence Advisor and sexy loudmouth aspiring journalist, pulls along quirky and anxious first year student Harry, determined to help him get the most out of college. The younger boy quickly learns that college isn't just about bad roommates and boring professors, but a place for getting hopelessly lost trying to take a shortcut in the dead of night, getting pulled up onstage in a coffeehouse, getting a bit tipsy and making bad decisions, and maybe even falling for someone entirely off limits. **Trigger Warning: Anxiety/Panic Attacks** *I really appreciate all the lovely messages, but I am not currently looking to translate any of my stories*

His patience was growing thin. His composure already slipping. He had everything and he didn't want it anymore. In fact, he hated it, so much that he'd rather escape, to pretend that his 17 years of living was merely a dream, and that he was finally waking up for the first time. He took his chances and met the most secretive bunch. This was his story, yet it wasn't. Can lying and suffering really be better than serenity and boredom?

Louis Tomlinson. Harry Styles. Liam Payne. Niall Horan. Zayne Malik. They all grew up together. They used to be best friends. One night in 8th year changed everything. No one knows what happened between Louis and Harry but it split the friend group up. The distance between the two caused a ripple effect. Louis is the popular football player. He acts like he doesn't care about anyone. He keeps everyone at a distance and refuses to have any relationships. He still has Liam. Harry is the loner kid who gets straight A's and is bullied by all the popular kids...except for his old friend Louis. Niall had stayed by his side even though he doesn't know the whole story. One day Harry finds out what Louis has tried so hard to hide. Can they let go of the past? Do they want to?

Harry Styles is a loner with social anxiety and a boring life. His past constantly mocks him and he has a severe self harm addiction that nobody, not even his best friend Zayn, knows about. Louis Tomlinson is the first openly gay member of his town's football (soccer) team and he doesn't want his sexuality to define him. He hates being known as "Louis, the gay one" and he is constantly bullied. He is very insecure about his sexuality and does anything to seem manly, which includes begging Niall and Liam to let him be. Both boys attend the same college. When they meet, their newfound friendship turns out to be great for the both of them. It eventually turns to a relationship. They are both in their own states of Misery.

❝ I really hope you don't expect me to do anything. Because I won't. I don't care. Cry all you like but when it comes down to it, you don't need me and I don't need you. Love isn't real. It only exists in fairytales and Disney movies. This is real life, honey. Get used to it. ❞

Harry couldn't imagine his first day at university going any worse. Then he sees him... Louis Tomlinson •This story is complete highest ranking #1 larrystylinson

Harry is gay. Louis is straight and has a girlfriend. Well. At least that's what Harry thought, until Liam blabs his mouth about Harry's sex life and mentions that Louis is, in fact, bi. And after a strange turn of events, Harry finds himself intimately attached to Louis during a one night stand he hadn't anticipated. After that, everything changes. *cough* smut *cough* ----- Chapters will probably go private after publishing (which is the norm for my books) so you will probably need to follow. (Also, I do this thing where I just throw all my chapters out at once. I've just had my first child, so I've been writing this whenever I can, and I'd rather publish it all at once rather than leave people waiting for chapters that could've taken months to be written.)

The one where Louis and Harry start out as best friends who like to get each other off but end up as way more than that, which gets them in more trouble than they initially intended. this book is also available on ao3 (we're just friends- harrys_son_ishmael)

"Just behave Harry." Liam sighs. "It's the World Cup, I have worked hard for this and I still can't believe that mom and dad convinced coach to take you with us." "Don't worry, Liam. I won't bother you, I have Niall with me." Harry grins while packing his suitcase. "I am so excited!" "Yeah, Niall with you is the thing that worries me the most. He doesn't have a good influence on you. Just don't forget about the rules, Harry. Don't disobey them." "I'm 18 Liam, not a kid. I know what's right or wrong." "You behave like a kid, Harry and for sure when Niall is with you. But you know it: Don't start conversations with other players yourself, just answer..." "just answer them when they talk to me and no flirting with players. I got it Liam." Harry rolls his eyes. "I mean it, Harry. I don't want to hear complaints from other players or coaches. Don't cause trouble." Liam has a stern look on his face and Harry gives him an innocent smile in return. "I won't brother..." He will. Liam Payne is captain of the American football team. When there is the world cup, his parents randomly decide that Liam has to bring his little brother and his best friend with him to Brazil. Liam is not happy with it and gives his little brother some rules to make sure he doesn't create any chaos while he has to focus on winning the cup. But Harry has never been one to listen to his brother or following rules. -All the football players are fictional