They were always fated to be apart. But they could sure try.

~i just wanted to protect you.~ // Sequel to Lovely If you haven't read Lovely first please go do that or else this book won't make sense! This book does contain spoilers for Lovely as well so make sure you don't read this one without reading Lovely first! ~ Somewhat AU. This story may contain graphic depictions of sensitive topics such as, but not limited to; anxiety, depression, other mental illness, panic attacks, verbal abuse, self harm, etc. Every chapter containing topics such as these and others that could be considered harmful for readers will be marked with a trigger warning but you are still advised to proceed with caution. All main characters are 18+ despite the current time period the story takes place in.

Why does all this shit happen to me? "To have someone so close to you just disappear is a pain I can't explain. It just feels empty. So incredibly empty." Girlxgirl with Billie Eilish. Ember suffers from anxiety and depression but she tries to hide it as good as she can. For her, the way to do it is to put on a mask and act as if she's this confident and cocky girl that no one messes with because they're scared. Sometimes, the mask slips off and people get to see the real Ember, who's emotional, caring and kind. One day, Ember meets a girl who makes her want to take her mask off and show her real personality.

Juliette Smith has always been the girl with the big heart. The one who puts others first, the one her brother swore to protect at all costs. Living under Jonathan's roof in LA was supposed to be temporary, just until she found her footing again. But then Billie Eilish walked into their world. What starts as harmless, the superstar hanging around her brother's studio, late-night conversations in their kitchen, quickly turns into something dangerous. Something neither of them can afford to feel. Because Billie is Jonathan's best friend. And Juliette? She's the one person Jonathan would never let her be with. Loving her means lying to him. Wanting her means risking everything. But some things are impossible to hide.

angel monarch, a world famous poet, gets asked to help write a song with finneas o'connell and billie eilish after moving to new york. the only problem is, angel's identity is hidden. writing a song proves pretty difficult but they make it work. over the weeks angel catches feelings, but it's okay because billie is never gonna discover her real identity, right?

Elliot Eneide, 21, moved to the United States from England three years ago after an incident with her mom. After two failed suicide attempts, she was determined to succeed the third time, but then 19 year old Billie Eilish stumbled into her life, turning her world upside down and making it hard to say goodbye.

Dahlia is just coming to terms with her sexuality when Billie, the girl who stares too much and keeps popping up everywhere, comes to her school. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ {WARNING: This story contains foul language, mentions of sex, violence, mentions of abuse, mentions of sexual assault, molestation, and rape, and mentions of suicidal thoughts. There are trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters that mention these things!}

Alexis Ackerman lives a troubled life, surrounded by gang violence and instability. Billie Eilish lives an interesting life of her own, having just started on her path towards worldwide stardom. When the two collide sparks fly immediately, though neither girl is ready to admit it's anything more than lust. ~ AU. Though the names of some characters are the same as people in real life, they are still characters. The actions of said characters do not necessarily reflect the views, personality, or actions of the people they're named after and based around. Contains violence, drug use, drinking, ptsd and anxiety episodes, sex, and strong language Main characters are 18+

"why do you vape? it's bad for you. you know that, right?" she asked quietly after a moment. "i know it is, but i can't stop now. it's an addiction." i shrugged, fidgeting with my novo. "why can't i be your new addiction?" she whispered, looking at me pleadingly. "that can be arranged." ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 5/1/2020 ended: 11/2/2020 ============================== achieved: ? #1 in #dontsmileatme 7/25/2020 ? #1 in #billieeilish 10/4/2020 ? #3 in #lgbtq 9/21/2020 ? #1 in #billie 9/27/2020 ? #1 in #claudia 10/17/2020 ? #17 in #lgbtpride 11/2/2020

"your favorite patient is back." dedicated to peyton moonson, rest in paradise darling 🙏🏻