Gillian was not a stranger to hardships and difficult choices. From the death of her father, to an unexpected pregnancy, she continued to tread through life with her head held high- or perhaps that was just the facade she wanted everyone else to see. Broken and insecure, at fault of her boyfriend, Gillian finds loving herself to be a difficult task. But when a new face appears in her explicit place of work, she's finally shown life can be sweet, rather than unforgiving and bitter. (G!P)

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ꜱᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ʟᴀᴜɢʜ ᴏʀ ꜱᴍɪʟᴇ, ɪɴ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ꜱᴏʀᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴡᴀʏ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴀꜱ ʜʏᴘɴᴏᴛɪᴢɪɴɢ, ʜᴇʀ ɪᴄʏ ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ꜱᴇᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴍᴀɢɴᴇᴛ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ᴋᴇᴘᴛ ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅ ʜᴇʀ. ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴ 50 ᴅᴀʏꜱ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ᴍʏ ᴘʟᴀɴ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴘʀɪᴇꜱ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢꜱ ɢᴏ ꜱᴏʀᴛᴀ ᴏꜰꜰ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ. ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ, ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴ ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴋɪɴᴅᴀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴅ. ɴᴏᴡ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ. ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ʙʏ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ. ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴀᴛᴛᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴇᴀʀᴛʜ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ɪɴ ᴀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ, ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏɴᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄ. -ʟᴏᴡᴇʀᴄᴀꜱᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ

ᴀ ꜱʜᴏʀᴛ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ

ɪ ɴᴏᴅ, ᴄʜᴏᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ʀᴇꜰᴜꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴄʀʏ ʏᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. "ꜰᴜᴄᴋ" ɪ ꜱʜᴀᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ "ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ɪᴍ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ" ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ʜᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ "ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴢʏᴀ? ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴡʜᴏ ᴍᴀɴɪᴘᴜʟᴀᴛᴇꜱ ᴍʏ ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴘᴜᴘᴘᴇᴛꜱ; ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀɪɴɢꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ, ᴍᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʙꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ, ʜᴏᴡᴇᴠᴇʀ, ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴇᴠɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜᴇʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴ ꜰɪᴄ.

and this is the story of how i died twice.

"𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨." 𝐀 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥, 𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐫𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐬.

: ̗̀➛ oc x billie eilish g!p fanfiction "that's not how i see you... and it breaks my heart that you think that about yourself" = started: 25/07/22 = status: on going

: ̗̀➛ oc x billie eilish g!p fanfiction "the only time i don't feel like a ghost is when you're looking at me" = started: 16/09/21 =status: on going

The average person is led to believe college junior, Billie O'Connell lacks commitment, manners and even morals in some cases. The 21 year-old frequently tends to spend her time at parties, doing drugs of limited kind, or participating in hook-up culture. Her character is challenged one Monday morning at a cross walk, when a cane hits her leg. That cane just so happened to belong to Julia Morales, a younger woman currently learning to cope with losing her vision. Hesitant at first, Billie opens her heart and joins Julia in her journey. (G!P)

Rowan, a girl of a coy and passive nature, did not expect to be flung into someone else's life so abruptly- and graphically at that. It could have been anyone, but for a reason unknown to her, the universe chose her. The life she stepped into belonged to another girl, that to Rowan's dismay, was unaware of how prized of a possession she truly was. She did not value every breath she took or even the supple skin on her body. But her helpless soul was not to blame. Billie struggled with a list of issues doctors of all kinds were unable to diagnose. Everyday was a fight against her conscience and she feared, a day would come in which she would lose. In a way, the pair were star-crossed. Rowan knew the severity of Billie's situation and her undeniable inability to be helped, but still, she could never forgive herself if she had turned a blind eye and walked away after that single, dark and rainy night. She often questioned whether or not her actions were fueled by an honorable sense of selflessness or its much more complicated counterpart- selfishness.