do you regret pushing those feelings away and hoping they'd disappear?

theodore decker had felt jealousy in life, almost everyone had. but when the one person he felt happy, loved, and calm around got a girlfriend? god, it sucked.

❝ you're stuck in my head and i can't get you out of it, if i could do it all again, i know i'd go back to you ❞ where a sixteen year old boy realises he has feelings for his best friend. [basically the goldfinch but gayer]