Felix gets an unknown disease which makes his heart very weak, his only chance to survive is by getting a new heart. TW: Grammar errors! Death Mental health issues Smut Eating problems Sexual assault (only mentioned no rape or other kind of sexual assault is done in this book) This book is a weird mixture of sadness, smut and weirdness, but I'm still working on my writing skills so don't judge too much and don't be too disappointed 🫀: heavy mentioning of his disease ⚠️: smut/ make outs !the disease is not real, it's all made up, so don't come at me if something medically makes no sense!

(gay) Tom: top Jerry: bottom

( Bang Chan + Lee Felix ) ❝Teach me how to love, without lust...❞ ┈┈ mistopher | 2021 ++ Satyriasis; uncontrollable sexual desire in a man. Sex addiction, a mental illness just like the rest, yet so overlooked. So what is Bang Chan to do when all those around him either take advantage of his addiction, or look down on him for it? He's not quite sure, and Chan only hopes that that special someone would be willing to overlook his past, and teach him how to truly love, with no lust. || SATYRIASIS BOOK 1/2

Felix and his group of friends appeared to be living happily, each in a relationship, savoring the joys of life--except Felix. He felt a growing sense of isolation as his friends refused to disclose the identities of their partners. This secrecy deeply wounded Felix, especially because he developed feelings for someone within the group. The web of emotions and family trauma entangles Felix even more as he found out his friends' secret relationship that they wish Felix could join, leading him to question himself regarding his capabily of love. How will Felix react as he unravels his own heart?

Felix harbors a deep, unspoken love for Chan and channels his feelings into writing a song titled "Unfair," filled with raw emotion and longing. Meanwhile, Chan, also secretly in love with Felix, misinterprets the lyrics as Felix's feelings for someone else, sparking jealousy and heartache. Despite the tension, Chan supports Felix with his composition, pouring his heart into helping craft the melody while grappling with his own concealed emotions. Both feel the unspoken connection during their collaboration, but neither finds the courage to confess their true feelings.

Love doesn't always happen in a single moment. Sometimes, it lingers-growing unnoticed between late-night conversations, quiet glances, and the warmth of someone who always stays. For Bang Chan, it started the day he met Felix, an unspoken feeling that only deepened with time. But some emotions are too fragile to risk, too dangerous to admit. To Felix, Chan was his anchor, his constant-the brother he never had. Or so he believed. Because feelings are unpredictable, and what once seemed like simple friendship begins to blur into something more. Between the weight of their dreams, the pressure of the spotlight, and the fear of losing each other because of Kota and Park, they must face the truth: Is love worth risking everything they've ever known?

Previously: Room for Two One room. Two boys. Zero peace. Hyunjin and Felix have nothing in common - except for the fact that they're now stuck sharing a tiny dorm room on a rainy Seoul campus. Hyunjin's a walking red flag with too much confidence and too many girls. Felix is loud, chaotic, and always in everyone's business. They can't stand each other. But everything changes one night on the balcony - when Felix almost doesn't come back inside. From then on, the tension between them shifts. The walls drop. And slowly, through shared playlists, sleepy lectures, and 3AM heart-to-hearts, something starts to grow. Something soft. Something real. And maybe, just maybe... there's more room in their hearts than either of them expected.

They were each other's first love. And their first heartbreak. Felix and Hyunjin haven't spoken since high school-since one goodbye tore them apart. Now they're debuting in the same idol group. To the world, they're rivals. Strangers. Behind closed doors, they're something messier. Bitten-back words. Lingering stares. A history neither of them knows how to bury. But feelings don't fade just because time passes. And love doesn't always listen to reason. Because what do you do when the boy you thought you lost forever... is standing right in front of you again? This is their second first love. And maybe-just maybe-it's the one that lasts.

They took the biggest risk - and the world watched them fall into each other's arms. But after the final bow, after the last encore, Felix and Hyunjin find out loving each other in secret was easy compared to loving each other out loud. In the bright glare of the spotlight, rumors swirl faster than any song. Every touch is a headline. Every word is dissected. And behind closed doors, they're still just two boys trying to hold each other together - and hold themselves together too.

Hyunjin was promised a private dorm. After all, he's used to getting what he wants - rich, popular, effortlessly talented, and just a little too obsessed with silence. That is, until a last-minute housing mix-up drops a transfer student from Sydney right onto his neatly folded side of the room. Felix is everything Hyunjin isn't prepared for: sunshine in human form, playlists always playing, and a tendency to bake at 2AM when homesickness hits. He hums when he thinks, smiles when he sleeps, and slowly chips away at every cold wall Hyunjin's built around himself. They're not enemies, not really. More like... allergic to each other's habits. At least at first. But somewhere between passive-aggressive post-it notes, shared midnight snacks, and spring afternoons spent not avoiding each other, something soft begins to bloom. Surely it can't be... love?