She hides her problems with a smile. A smile is all it takes to hide her world of hurt and despair. The only person that makes an attempt to see past her smile is the one she hates the most. That she is Elowyn Grey. Elowyn hates herself. Elowyn hates life. More importantly she hates hers. She wonders if it's even worth living anymore. If life doesn't get better in a years time, she's calling it quits. She decides to write it all down so her parents can look back at her miserable life after she's gone. This is a look inside the life of a teenage fuckup.