She hated them. They loved her with everything in them. The universe truly has a sick way of telling you it's there, doesn't it? From being kidnapped to being abused, that was all Arabella saw in life. It was all she ever knew. They tell you to keep fighting but sometimes you realize... you were just a child. Now she's built herself up using her pain as the next step to her strength. She's learnt how to strive forward even as her past haunts her mind crawling up her back every passing second. That is until the first 7 people who only ever brought her pain find their way back into her life. She has no way to let go of her past when they come right back to her. The world showed her no mercy in it's ways so why should she. ~~~ I let out a small sigh wanting more of this. I wanted to be held like this whenever I felt broken. Feel the way he puts me back together in his arms. It ate at my heart and I could have sworn I felt a feathery kiss on my head. It was as if he could hear my thoughts and was kissing them away for me. Slowly he lets one hand go, the other staying around me as he brings my chin up to him gently wiping my last tears as more fill my eyes. He sees this and his eyes look... crumbled. If you feel this way then why can't you choose me, Dominic. I shake my head from his hands wishing to step back but he pulls me back to him a pain filled groan leaving him. "Just one more minute. Please." His body shook and I brought him closer, feeling our pain become one. Our hurricanes of minds pull away even for the smallest time letting us stand together as one in each other's embrace. He was it for me. But I wasn't his.

"It's you and me. Together," he says. "Us against the world." ***** All my life, I've never trusted men. The image of them planted in my head is the figure of my abusive stepfather who has made my mother and I live in hell. But then, an encounter with the school's football team captain, Jake Spencer, in one particular morning, starts to make me question my judgment. It's the day when he saves me. He's given me hope I never knew existed. However, I'm the only one who remembers. Of course. He's the superstar in my high school, and I'm just a girl trying to fit in. I should stay away from him, blending in the crowd just like I used to do, avoiding him. Because we are two people from two different worlds. So when fate decides differently, it strikes me with a force so violent that I can't escape from. He destroys me. And just like the first time we met, I'm the only one who remembers everything. Little do I know that it destroys him too. ***** THE SPENCERS SERIES BOOK #2 © 2020 Anya Jayvyn. All Rights Reserved. (Content warning: This book has descriptive sexual content, explicit language, and triggering themes)

Solienne (n.) - a name evoking sunlight after ruin; the quiet resilience of something lost, yet still burning. Isabella Moretti was kidnapped when she was three years old. She doesn't remember the brothers who loved her. And they don't know the girl she's become. Living under a new name in a quiet city, Isabella is a survivor-sharp-eyed, secretive, and always prepared to run. But when she transfers to a prestigious academy, two of the school's most feared students take notice: Antonio and Francesco Moretti. Cold, calculating, untouchable-until now. They don't know why they're drawn to her. Why she feels like something familiar. Why their guarded silence begins to crack around her laugh, her pain, her presence. They have no idea she's the sister they've mourned for years. And Isabella? She has no idea she's walking straight back into the family that never stopped searching. Solienne is a story of blood that remembers, even when memory doesn't-of lost things finding their way home, and love that endures even when the truth is buried in silence.

Verity was a quiet 16 year old girl who had a tough life. She never meant for things to go so bad- so why did they? Abandoned at the ripe age of 3, she was adopted by a narcissistic asshole who abused her for 13 years straight. Her only escape was her best friends, who she saw as her older brothers and his dad- who she called her dad. He fed her and kept her safe, helping her when things got bad at home. She introduced herself as Verity Volkov, which wasn't her last name but the last name she wishes she had. Her father figure, Mikael Volkov, was the leader of the Russian mafia. Verity attended NLA, New Life Academy. One day, when she is at school, the unspeakable happens- her adoptive father commits. With nowhere to legally go, she sits in the sheriffs office, awaiting her DNA test. To her surprise, she has a family- in fact, she had a mom, a dad, and 6 older brothers. Six! What was she to do as she moves to Italy to live with her biological family, who appeared to be the Russians rivals- the Italian mafia. Her father was the don of the goddamn Italian mafia. She stays quiet and emotionless during her time in Italy, trying to cope before she meets Nicolas Ricci- the man her family despises yet the man who took interest in her. The man she falls in love with without realizing. As her story unfolds and secrets reveal, Verity goes through an emotional rollercoaster. And through this all Verity has one question only: Why did her biological family abandon her? What will she do to cope through all of this? ______________________________________

Metanoia (n.) the journey of changing one's mind, heart, self or way of life. Part one Darcy Russo a nine year old girl living in a run down orphanage on the outskirts of Athens, Greece has had to fend for herself for the majority of her life. Being abandoned as a child and having to endure cruelty and abuse from those who were supposed to look after her has caused her to become untrusting and wary of others. Instead she seeks solace in nature, spending any and all free time exploring the wilderness and the ocean with her dog Bear. Although Darcy has accepted that she can only depend on herself, what happens when she finds out that she wasn't abandoned she was taken and her eight older brothers will stop at nothing to get her back. Part two After being kidnapped by the Russian mafia and tortured for years for information she doesn't have, Darcy Russo becomes cold and calculated. When the leader of the Russian mafia Ivan Volkov offers her a deal, train and work for him as an assassin or die, she can't exactly refuse. Being nicknamed 'Sin' by the underworld, she changes her identity and becomes a ruthless, efficient killer. But what happens when she is sent on a mission to destroy the family she once loved. Will she let the resentment she has for them for being the reason she was tortured take over or will she spare their lives? And what happens when she catches the attention of her brother's best friend.

He's known to be like the devil, that's how he got his name. A cold hearted killer. People vanish when they see his presence, but scream when they don't. He's deranged, heartless, and some would call him a monster. He's killed more people then he's loved. What the world doesn't know is that he was once a little boy. A boy who lost all hope in the goodness of the world before he could even experience the world. Aurora eventually learns, even the most deranged, cruel and dangerous people need. She knows he's dangerous, cold, and considered a monster. But she can't help but only see him as a man who had everything stripped from him before he even got a chance to speak his first word. *This book is more of a romance book than a mafia book.*

Daffodil was born into chaos - the unwanted daughter of a reckless biker and a bitter club girl. Cast aside, betrayed, and forced to survive a brutal childhood, Daffodil spent her early years fighting battles no child should face. Betrayed by the father she worshipped, humiliated by the boy she once loved, she learned early that love was a lie. When her only source of light, her baby brother Nate, comes into her life, Daffodil becomes both sister and protector. But one act of violence tears them apart from the only world they've known. Twelve years later, Daffodil has risen from the ashes. No longer the broken, lonely girl of the past, she has become a powerful, untouchable force - the head of a fashion empire, admired, feared, and envied. With Nate thriving under her fierce protection, Daffodil has built a life so dazzling that even her old enemies can only watch from afar. But when Blaze - the father who betrayed her - learns the devastating truth he was too blind to see, he comes searching for the children he abandoned. Torn between rage and the little brother who dreams of knowing his real father, Daffodil is forced back into the world that once destroyed her. A story of survival, vengeance, and healing, and most importantly about a woman who refused to stay broken - a woman who made the world bow to her strength, and who will never again let anyone decide her worth.

"Why would you do that for me? We barely know each other?" I say barely above a whisper. "Because I think you're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." He with complete honesty lacing his voice. His beautiful brown eyes bore into mine as if it were only the two of us left in the world. ••• When 20 year old Luna and her best friend Lily move into a new apartment to go to college, Luna ends up befriending a boy who would change their lives forever. Luna is starting over in a new city, hoping she can put her traumatic past behind her. Learning how to trust people and let them in isn't easy, but will a certain certified bad boy break down her walls? Jax is a 25 year old who is currently preparing to take over the canadian mafia from his father. He's a very closed off and cold person. He doesn't like it when people touch him and try to break down his walls, but what happens when he see's a girl and can't help but to want to feel her touch. Will these two be able to save each other? or will they build up their walls so high that neither of them will be able to break each others down. Rivals and secrets are brought to the surface, people fall in and out of love, their loyalty gets tested and tensions rise. Will this group of strangers turned friends be able to beat the odds, or should they give up before they even start. this book contains • mature language • violence • SA • SH • smut

It's been ten years since the Stones family lost their little girl. In those ten years, Alexandra Rose has grown up with an abusive foster father who has neglected her to the point where she almost reached death. One day, two men find Alexandra in a secluded place in her most vulnerable state. Not knowing that she's their sister, they help her and let her go. But later on, on the same day, they seem to find their way to one another and Alexandra is finally reunited with her family. Soon after, she meets a group of boys, one who had just gotten out of juvie. They help her get away from her biggest nightmare and immediately become friends. But one certain boy takes an interest in Alexandra. Everett Knight is the heartless bad boy. Fresh out of juvie, he meets the beautiful, innocent girl who's eyes only hold pain and fear from the world. He was cruel to everyone that crossed his path, except her. But he's dangerous, and he knows it. Alexandra doesn't need anymore danger in her life, so what happens when they cross paths? ❦ ❦ ❦ "His love was all I needed to feel complete." [NOT an incest story.]

Ruthless Alpha Kane meets Sora, a gentle human who shatters his walls-and turns his world upside down. *** At 31, Alpha Kane Locus Black has given up on looking for his mate. Since the age of 18 it has been all he wanted; now at 31 he is a cold, scary and distant Alpha to his pack. Until he meets Sora. His little human mate. *** Book 1 of the Alpha series