Nellie revisits her deepest darkest secret | themes: taboo dark forbidden romance mystery psychological thriller horror childhood trauma memories near death accident attack family secrets twisted sisters summertime sadness

Nellie experiences a drug-induced psychosis in a hotel room alone. Paranoid that she is dying causes her to call 911 to send help. She is convinced she is dead before the paramedics arrive and find her unconscious. Nellie habitually gets the "birthday blues": feelings of sadness, apathy, or a lack of desire to celebrate your birthday. Approaching Nellie's 30th birthday, she has recently lost her house and dealt with a turbulent start to her relationship with Harris. Harris and Nellie make amends just before Nellie's birthday, and Nellie has shut the rest of her friends and family out of her life from celebrating. Nellie makes a last minute decision to buy psychedelics for her birthday to try to stabilize her mood and self medicate. Nellie checks herself in a hotel room alone on her 30th birthday to "celebrate" alone with her psychedelic drugs.

When Nellie calls upon undercover gangster Harris to vent about her money troubles, Harris promises Nellie that he will make a two hour drive to deliver her the money she needs to save her home. When Harris suddenly disappears on his route, Nellie sets out on a determined and spiraling search for the truth.

With her motivation depleted, Nellie decides she cannot go on by herself and seeks help. She finds a treatment center called Crossroads Clinic and commits 30 days in captivity. As she opens up about her past, she receives unexpected attention and sacrifices some of her own healing again as she gets distracted.