I hate it here. I hate him. I hate mom. I hate dad. I hate germany. I have mason. I hate everything! Description: this book is about a 18 year old named Tracy Freeland, she lives with her mom Mel and her younger brother Mason. She struggles with self harm, and when she was 16 she got raped by a man by Tom Kaulitz who still haunts and torments her life. She eventually falls inlove with this man. But she still struggles, one day, she can't take it anymore and ends her life.