One busy night can make a life filled with remorse. I finished putting the last of my things away I was about to leave before I was stopped. "Yaguchi-San.." Called out a tired Yotasuke. "What is it?" I asked. Yotasuke look as if he were about to fall asleep any minute. It was as if he hasn't been to bed in days. He let out a sharp breath. "Could you ride the bus home with me." He paused. "Please." start date: April 28th 2022 end date: October 2, 2023

"𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙢𝙚, 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝" Reminder: ⚠️ Various BLUE PERIOD x Male Reader/Reader insert Many sensitive themes Angst 1/3 acts completed Started: 10/12/2021 Ended: I despise illustrations, yet I keep doing it. People are the same approach. Despite the fact that I detest communicating with others, I continue to hang around. Both activities are significant. It's meant to make people satisfied. I do things in order to be acknowledged and rewarded. I do things in order for others to like me. I do things in an attempt for people to see how hard I work. I sometimes forget what I'm meant to be doing. I forget many things. I run the risk of losing myself, forget who I am, and neglect about others. I experience a loss when I am touched affectionately. I'm so humiliating, so ignorant, so vulnerable. I rely on others, but I'd rather that they depend on me instead. I do matters I don't want to do since doing what others did allowed me fit in, but it wasn't my best attribute, so it made matters severe. Individuals argue over who I should be when I eventually wanted to accomplish the things I wanted to do. I lost track of who I was as I absorbed the words into my consciousness. I ended up being multiple versions of myself. All of these creatures saw me as an object. I was the paint for those painters. The paint was my blood. #392 drawing 16/12/2021 #187 drawing 17/12/2021 #148 drawing 18/12/2021 #76 drawing 24/12/2022

After a talk with Hashida, Yotasuke builds up the courage to invite Yatora to the shrine on New Year's Eve, promising the tall boy that he would be more sincere with his feelings when it came to Yaguchi. Title inspired by the song "Pink and Gold and Blue" by You'll Never Get to Heaven. (Yes I know using songs as titles is cringe, deal with it. Listen to it though it's really nice and alt.)

Have you ever felt you where so close getting the person you loved most? Well that's exactly what happened to yotasuke. It's almost a dream that you want to experience again and again forever. It took a whole year just for a yes or no.