THIS BOOK WAS FIRST CALLED -CRAZY PATIENCE- !!!! STARTED WRITING: 25-12-23 (25th of December 2023) PUBLISHED FIRST CHAPTER: 3-5-24(4th of May 2024) PUBLISHED LAST CHAPTER: ?? [Love how the cover of this book explains so much about the story😍] Hyunjin just moved in into his new appartement, everything is going well. He just finished school and got his master degree for being a therapist, his dream job. He lives in a small appartement, which is great for himself. His parents always cared for him and supported him so ofcource his life is going well. That's until he meets his first patient. A boy with a ton of trauma's and insecurities, who is full of anxiety and sadness. Will Hyunjin get to use his master degree to unveil all those secrets or will it only make his own feelings harder to keep for himself? Who knows? /// "---so let me help you okay?" \\\ "You can't help me..."

"Another thing, i want all of this to be just sex. That's all. We have no attachment to each other, other than being friends, or frenemies. Is that clear?" "O-Of course. Only casual sex." Where HyunJin and Felix are big rivals but one event lead them to a big mistake and they started loving and loving that mistake and made a deal about it. WARNING! THE PLOT AND THE EVENTS IN THIS STORY ARE SO COMMON, CLICHÉ, GENERIC AND HAS A LOT OF SMUT SCENES! READ IF YOU STILL WANT TO CONTINUE AND SCROLL DOWN IF YOU DON'T LIKE. It's shit at first but it gets better halfway through. 😈 And PLEASE, do NOT spoil the story in my comments. I will appreciate it a lot if y'all just kept your mouths shut. Started: 03/02/22 Finished: 07/11/22

Where it all went wrong, he didn't know. They used to be happy. Their relationship used to be so full of laughter, promises, flowers and chocolates. The spring used to be so beautiful over these balconies, but now, even in the blooms, all Felix could see was draught. Nothing was the same anymore.

Lee Felix is a someone who seemingly has it all -fame, beauty, money, fans. But he has something else as well: something that causes some people to question why they rarely see him eat -and why he never wears short sleeves. Navigating life as a K-pop idol while struggling mentally was the norm for Felix by now. But what happens when some people begin to notice? -idol au -hyunlix(?) TW'S: Self harm Depression Eating disorders Panic attacks Body dysmorphia Smoking Drinking Suicidal thoughts Suicide attempt

"you're better than those drugs" -Sometimes people just need one hand to try. Instead of walking away, you have to help person who lost their will to live. To help them find reason to continue. - that's what happens when Hwang Hyunjin decides to help his friend Lee Felix to stop using drugs. From familiar person to friends to something more...

Felix is an idol came from SKZ have a very deep depression but he never says this to his Family to his members friends, or fans even tho he don't say it to his members, family's,friends and to fans they know he is in a deep depression. Can SKZ members or Chan help him get thru it or nah? TW//:suicidal :self harm :deep cuts :depression :mention of blood

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"you really need to stop felix" his voice is laced with worry and concern, the opposite of mine as I tell him to shut up and snatch my hand away. "im pushing everyone away, and i dont even know why even with black holes under my eyes, sunken cheeks, and a frail body, I dont know why I keep rejecting their help. and its only a matter of time before my body goes dumb, and my will to live vanishes." // what happens when the so called sunshine of stray kids, felix, loses his spark? (in editing)

They thought he was weird, an alien for doing the things he did. But maybe, just maybe, they should have observed better. ------------------------------------------------- "Pain does not scare me, Hyungie, feelings do." ~ <3

This is my first ever time writing a book, so I hope you like it ♥️ Hurts so good..... A story about a young boy named Lee Felix who had a terrible childhood from getting beaten by his parents, not cared about, and called horrible names, etc. Felix tries his best to survive. Then when he meets a boy named Hwang Hyunjin the schools bad boy were for Hyunjin he gets his way all the time and is a HUGE flirt and don't care about anything. What happens when these 2 meet? Story contains: Mentions of suicide Mentions of child abuse Eating disorder ⚠️ Smut ⚠️ Fluff Crossdressing (Felix and Han) And many other things also each chapter will have what the story contains