Charles hates Max, it's always been like this and it always will be like this. That's what he thought before he found out everything Max is hiding. [lestappen] - mature content There will be no warning at the beginning of the chapter to avoid spoilers.

appetence an eager desire, an instinctive inclination; an attraction or a natural bond Loving him was a losing game from the beginning, he knew this. But he couldn't stop falling for him. They knew that giving into this desire and attraction between them could make them both lose everything but they did it anyway. "I shouldn't be jealous, you aren't even mine." Since their childhood it was always them, always this two young boys against each other. Nobody knew what they were all these years. Friends? Rivals? Enemys? Not even them knew what it was between them. But could this thing between them become more than it was? "Keeping my distance because I know I can't have you." All these suppressed feelings came back when Charles became a Formula Driver for Alfa Romeo in 2018. They thought that they were over everything that happened but that changed in the moment they stared into each others eyes again. "We play dumb but we know exactly what we are doing." It was always them against the rest. It will always be them against the rest. "I can't stay away from you."

Charles receives an invitation to his ex-lover Max's wedding to Kelly, which reignites his feelings of heartbreak and loss. As he grapples with his emotions, Charles struggles to cope, feeling himself slipping back into a depressive state. The memories of the love he once shared with Max haunt him, and he finds himself yearning for a love that he can no longer have. The story explores themes of love, loss, and the pain of moving on. - This story is also available on AO3, under the same name - Warnings: - Depression - Mentions of Suicide/Self Harm - Minor Smut - Pregnancy as a Manipulation Technique

Charles unexpectedly becomes single. He thought that break up was gonna be easy but it turns out to be compleatly false. He finds the much needed comfort in another driver. What happens when he suddenly finds out that he also likes men and how will everyone react?

This is the story of what would've, could've, should've been. In another universe. The story of two boys linked by something they simply can't ignore anymore.