There is no one in the world who could possibly love me, I know it. I've pretty much resigned to crying under my covers at night as my boyfriend who I adore links hands with my bullies at school and beats me down. Pretty cliche. I think. Sometimes, I lie awake at night, just wishing, begging, praying for an angel to fall in my lap and wave their magic wand, take the pain away. Maybe kill me silently in my sleep, take me to a better place... One where I am not alone, suffering, always suffering, and eternally rejected by the world. Still, the angels never respond, never reply, never come to my aid.. Will a DEVIL do? [A/N] Don't read this if you're sensitive to abusive scenes as there is physical and emotional abuse in this story... but have no fear, there are one or two other stories on this site you could read instead. ヽ(〃＾▽＾〃)ﾉ

Prologue : Hi my name is Jay, yeah it's a plain name and I'm very ordinary except for the fact that I just graduated college a month ago and decided to come out to my parents about being gay. Yes, I decided since I was moving out anyway and I was 18. I wasn't afraid to be kicked out since I had a place to stay and my parents just got me a car as a graduation present. A gorgeous yellow Ford Mustang, my baby, my heart almost stopped when I first laid eyes on her. Back to the point, that's when all hell broke loose. My parents (Well it's more my dad than my mother if I'm being honest here) decide that I'm an abomination and that I should be punished by god but I wasn't putting up with that outdated ancient prehistoric bullshit. So, guess what stupid me does out of anger and disappointment? I go drinking my sorrows away by myself and the next day I wake up with a sore back and marks on my wrists and ankles! what the actual fuck ?! the worst part is I don't even remember anything. And did I just lose my virginity to a one night stand!

This is Benji's story (from Breaking Finn) and how he met Ajax. Benji is 19, he suffers from A.D.H.D. (Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity Disorder), but with a lot of support from his family and his best friend he has learned to cope well with it and is now in his first year at U.C.L.A. His friend Jamie brings him with her to a club and he is introduced into the bdsm lifestyle. His interest is piqued and after training to be a sub, he is matched with a Dom, Ajax. This is a bxb (or mxm) story with light bdsm and explicit sexual encounters. If you are at all offended by any of this, please, just walk away from this story. My writing is certainly not for everyone and that's okay. I use models in my stories to represent characters. For me it helps me to fully engage with the character if I have a face and I think the readers might feel the same. However, my use of their pictures has no connection with the models themselves. I do not know any of them (unfortunately), I do not know their sexual preferences or their lifestyle so any depiction in my story has nothing to do with the person in real life. I also like to add songs/videos to my chapters and most of the time the music reflects the chapter somehow, so it's definitely worth listening to them if you are able. My stories are works of fiction. They are subject to copyright legislation, so please do not steal my story. If you steal an idea here or there, I don't really care. If my story inspires you to write something, that's a good thing. There are two very talented writers currently writing stories about some of the characters in this story. This is something I asked them to do and am very excited where they are taking their stories. The two spin-offs are about Eric & Stephan and Rob & Peter. I encourage you to read them. Eric & Stephan's story is "Lessons in the Male Anatomy" and Rob & Peter's story is "Anxiously Yours". They are both fabulous! :)