BOOK ONE Coming out was supposed to set Julian free. Instead, it left him with a broken arm, a mother who won't stop preaching, and a silence that grows heavier every day. High school feels like a cage, and Julian is certain he doesn't belong anywhere-until Paul crashes into his world. With his inked skin, effortless charm, and a following that makes him untouchable, Paul should be the last person Julian lets close. But in Paul's arms, Julian feels something he's never known before: safe. As their connection deepens, so does the danger. Loving Paul means risking exposure, rejection, and heartbreak all over again. Worse, it means facing the cruelest voice of all-the one inside Julian's own head. Tender, raw, and unflinching, Open is a story about first love, first heartbreak, and finding the courage to believe you're worthy of both. ::: I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.

BOOK TWO On the outside, Julian Douglas has everything: college athlete, good grades, friends who think he's unstoppable. But inside, he's unraveling. And the one person who ever made him feel whole-the boy he loved and lost-is the one person he can't let go of. Paul Jones is brilliant, beautiful, and broken. His art reaches millions, but behind the screens and gallery walls, he's drowning in silence, addiction, and a love that still lingers. When Julian and Paul collide again, old wounds resurface, old habits threaten to consume them, and both must decide if love is enough to heal what life has shattered. Heartbreaking, intimate, and unflinching, Alone explores the raw edges of mental illness, addiction, and the desperate, dangerous hope of holding onto someone who feels like home. : : : "I'm your boyfriend, Jules." He looked so sad then, so completely vulnerable and it was my fault. It was all my fault and I didn't notice until it was too late. "Do you forget that?" Maybe I did. Maybe I thought ignoring him would stop these feelings from surfacing, that missing him wouldn't take over if I never thought of him. And Paul had sighed, his hands coming up to wipe the few tears that hadn't fallen. His cheeks were flushed, he'd done enough crying for the day, and his hair was all over the place from his frustrated tugging. We'd both looked rough but seeing him just as a mess as I was... it made my heart hurt. So did his next words and I knew he'd already given up. "Do you wanna be with me or do you just not wanna be alone?"

"Oh come on, you're like a genius and you've been studying so much I was starting to miss you." "Only starting?" I teased. "I don't do well without you Jet Plane." He smiled at me. "Trust me I know." - Nicholas Jetson knew who he was. At least he did until he met Connor O'Brian. Becoming friends with Connor changed everything, the guy was loud and probably an alcoholic but he was also funny and looked at Jetson in a way no one had ever looked at him before. But it didn't really matter how Connor looked at him because they were just friends and nothing more. Well besides that one drunken hookup that Jetson couldn't get out of his head. ⚠️content warnings: rape, grooming, mentions of suicide and suicidal thoughts, addiction, depression, drunk driving {book two in Crossing Lines series}

*C O M P L E T E D* "This isn't like that stupid book, Oliver." "What do you mean by that?" "I mean this isn't a love story." - - - - Oliver Green is smart. With a dream of becoming a successful doctor, Oliver is always studying in hopes of attending Harvard medical school one day. A regular volunteer at the local animal shelter and a busy tutoring schedule keeps him busy. Benjamin Jones is an athlete. As captain and quarterback of the Eastside High School football team, he is well known as the 'it' boy of the school. Ben didn't think much of school, football was his entire life and all he could see himself doing in the future was playing at a D1 school before being drafted into the NFL. When Ben is in danger of being kicked off of the football team due to his slipping biology grade, Oliver is asked to tutor him. The unlikely pair get off to a rocky start, but as the two get to know one another, they find themselves never wanting tutoring to end. - - - - Top Rankings! #1 - lgbtfiction #1 - boyxboy #1 - nerdxjock #1 - nerd #1 - lgbtrights #2 - friendstolovers #2 - football ☆ #4 - lgbt ☆ #5 - tutoring #8 - teenfiction #10 - love #11 - gay #13 - tutor #13 - bxb

Toby Wentworth's life is a clusterfuck. For a lot of reasons. And one of them just happens to be the fact that he is very gay, and also so far in the closet that he's practically in Narnia. But then there's this guy. This guy in his calculus class who winks at him. And suddenly, they're partners for a project. And Toby cannot stop thinking about him. Toby does his best to balance school, work, relationships, and the biggest secret he's ever kept as life goes on. He does, honestly. He tries so very hard. But things like drama, bizarre coincidences, and, of course, his crippling tendency to overthink have been making it difficult, and it's really not fair. But Toby just cannot stop thinking about that boy. And there are times when he wants to hate himself because of it. Sometimes, Toby's life sucks. He'll admit it. But as aggravating as the feeling of being just out of reach of a romance he desperately craves is, there's something... thrilling about it. Something that, no matter how many times he tries, cannot get him to stop this madness. He's in trouble. Absolutely. But maybe trouble can have its benefits. *** cover art by me! Final chapter upload: 5/7/21 Word count: ~65k

Lafayette was the school's only out kid. Then Eden came along. Fay was all confidence, known for his flawless acting and effeminate clothing. He didn't bow down to anyone, and he was incredibly skilled at becoming friends with anyone he wanted to. Eden was all pretend confidence. On the inside, he was a calloused heart decorated by life-threateningly deep scars. But he never says a word. Not until Fay becomes a large part in his life, trying to teach him what it means to heal. •O•O• Trigger Warning: abuse, disordered eating, mental illnesses, rape, and self-harm. Rated mature for the above. Started: 5 . 3 . 20 Finished: 8 . 4 . 20

Cole Reeves, God he's a mess. You might be wondering how. Well... let's just say this book starts off with the sentence; 'Ookay, so the shed is collapsing and it's not my fault' But besides his awful bad luck, his shitty attitude about anything other than Nacho's, his extreme loathe for sports and bugs... what's so special about him? Well he manages to catch Nathaniel Green's eye. And Nathaniel just happens to be the celebrity of the school. Unfortunately, he also happens to be Cole's worst enemy. ~~~~~~~~~~~ "Jeezus Christ that guy's a mess" "Yeah... he is a mess." a big ass sigh, "But he's my mess." ~~~ #1 lgbt - September 30, 2021

What are we without flesh and blood? Are we nothing but a beating heart in a ribcage, a marching soul inevitably leading to our demise? Or are we here as a test of loyalty to our God, a God we do not know but must trust? And without this trust, we will be punished indefinitely for questioning his divinity. And what is a sheep without his shepherd? Without God, are we nothing but sheep led astray? How will we be guided to the light without a shepherd on earth? Should we trust our shepherd to tell us the truth? Or will we be covered in the blood of the lamb? A shepherd with blood on his hands could infect his flock with poison. And with this poison, he has control. And to Luke, this poison is all he knows. His seventeen years of life have been devoted to nothing else but God. He wakes up, goes to school or church, and sleeps; rinse and repeat. There is no place or time for anything else in his life, such as television, going out with friends, or discovering new hobbies. His father, Pastor Ivy, ensures this. His life purpose will be to serve the Lord and nothing else. A purpose that Luke believes is the right way. What else would there be to life? He hadn't questioned this until he met Gabriel, a man who was the complete opposite of him. A man who was strong in his sense of self. A man who didn't bow to anyone or anything and stood firm in his beliefs in The Church of Satan. A man who Luke feared. But also a man who felt like home to him.

At first glance, nobody would be able to tell that Nathaniel Jean had a problem. Or second glance, or third, or fourth. After all, he had everything. He was a captain of his school's soccer team and one of the top players in the state. He had a big house and money to spend. He had family, he had friends, he had fun, he had faith. He never meant for it to happen. He never wanted to look at another man in the way he should have been looking at a woman. The idea had disgusted him for most of his life - living in a heavily Catholic town with heavily Catholic parents, homophobia was the only response he knew. That didn't change when he first realized that he didn't like girls. No, Nathaniel Jean was still homophobic. He hated the idea of a man sleeping with another man. He was raised on the notion that all gays went to hell, and he believed it. He despised them, and so he despised himself. Nathaniel Jean was more fortunate than most, because help did arrive for him. Help by the name of Lucas Morgan, they boy he'd always known but never known. The boy with big dreams and bigger talent. The boy that changed Nathaniel's life over the course of their thirty-six week long senior year.

If there's one thing that's certain in Noah Quinn's life, it's that he absolutely hates Jace Jackson. Like, all consuming, burning, passionate hatred. While Noah and his best friend Lee are pretty much nobodies, Lee's bad boy older brother Jace is practically royalty. All cigarette smoke, hard edges, and angry brown eyes, the eldest Jackson brother was Noah's natural opposite. So much so, that he had made it his duty to ruin the younger boys life; until Noah becomes the thing that unravels his. After his family get into an accident, Noah has no choice but to move in with his best friend and the older brother that hates him more than anyone. But while he buries his trauma, Jace fights his demons alone. So after a few drunken mistakes, prank wars and shared bedsheets later, will the line between hate and love start to thin? Will the two stay enemies? Or will Noah be the one to break down the cold, hard walls, that Jace so desperately tries to keep up? (cover by @leolantsov disclaimers: bad language and sexual content dw if you don't like mature scenes, you can still read, there's a lot of fluff and cute romance (plus enemies to lovers angst) tw// family death, mentions of abuse- it's not graphic, but ill still include a tw at the beginning of certain chapters also plenty of taylor swift references and songs hehe )