Mason was once a rising star, a record-breaking swimmer with college scouts watching and medals around his neck. But after tragedy cracks his family apart, the boy who once felt at home in the water now flinches at its touch. Haunted by memories he can't outrun and guilt he can't outswim, He spirals into silence, secrets, and self-destruction. Then he meets Ethan - warm, patient, annoyingly perceptive. Ethan sees through Mason's rehearsed smiles and razor-edged charm. He challenges him. He stays. And for the first time in forever, Mason wonders if he might be worth saving. But healing isn't linear. And grief has a way of pulling you under just when you think you've learned to float. CHECK TW'S This book contains mature themes related to mental health, grief, substance use, and suicidal ideation. #1 in LGBT #1 in alcholism

Elijah has always been quiet, overlooked, the nerdy, soft spoken baby of the family while his older brother, Asher, is the loud, reckless golden boy, thriving under Friday night lights with his tight knit group of football playing friends. Among Asher's friends is Jaxon, cocky, untouchable, and completely out of Elijah's league, not that it stops the crush he's been harboring for years. Between wild parties, secrets, and the ever present chaos of high school, Elijah finds himself caught in a dangerous game as he finally purses his crush on his brother's best friend. But with rumors, reputations, and hidden relationships, getting close to Jaxon might just be the worst mistake Elijah's ever made. (BoyxBoy)

You love your best friend, he doesn't love you back. He has met a girl, a pretty little thing, he's in love with her. He's your only friend, but he has new friends. They're toxic and no good for you, either of you. They treat you like sh*t, and when you get treated like sh*t often enough, you start to believe it's what you deserve. And before you know it, you're drowning. You're drowning in deep, cold water. William and Aydan have been inseparable for ten years, due to an arrangement William's wealthy dad made to make sure his asocial son has at least one friend. During those years William has secretly fallen in love with Aydan. Once Aydan starts going out with a girl named Claudia, William wants to keep his friend close even if it hurts. Soon things start to change between them and Aydan's first love has more dangerous consequences than anyone could have guessed. CW: violence, depression 2020 (original), 2021 (edited)

Frank Iero was a boy who was alone, sure he had a family, but they never cared about him. All they cared about was his brother, Frank felt alone in the world, no one was there for him, until Gerard Way entered his life and changed everything, little did Frank know that Gerard's life was gonna end so quickly, along with his. This is how Frank Iero and Gerard Way, both committed suicide. WARNING: I highly advise that if you are sensitive to these topics, do not read the book. (Suicide mention) (Self harm mention) (Smoking mention) (Abuse mention) (Sexual Abuse mention) ---------------------------- ALTERNATE ENDING VERSION IS ON MY PAGE.

Aris' entire life changes when he discovers he has a heart condition that could be fatal if he doesn't receive a transplant. Eager to speed up the process and attempt to go into private hospital care, he takes on all different jobs to put away every penny he has to save his life. When the chance to become a nanny to a sassy five year old girl arises, Aris knows he's out of his depth with lack of experience. But when he finds out the employer is willing to pay fifteen hundred a week, it's an offer he cannot turn down. Nick is a grumpy, single father who cannot juggle the work-life balance. Desperate to find someone to help look after his daughter, Elodie, to give him the chance to launch his new business app. All he wants is someone he can trust. As Aris walks into his life and straight into this job, Nick is adamant he won't last a day with his cheeky daughter who has no filter. But when an unlikely friendship grows and Aris works his way into Elodie's heart, Nick notices something is beginning to spark in his too-despite telling himself to keep their relationship professional. Lines begin to blur with family outings and endless late nights. Aris knows he needs a new heart but he didn't expect Nick to completely steal it instead. TROPES - single dad / nanny - grumpy / sunshine - Aris falls first, Nick falls fucking harder - forced proximity - chronic disease/illness rep - spicy scenes - dual POV

Skylar Hall can't remember a single time in his life that he has had his shit together. His brother, Jessie Hall, is the complete opposite. The guy is outgoing, has excellent grades, and tons of friends. Of course, Skylar has friends too, but they have a tendency to get him into trouble. Jessie has good friends. Well, except one. His best friend, Ashton Rivera. That guy sucks, Skylar can't remember a single time in his life he could stand him. He just loves to get a rise out of Skylar, loves to piss him off to no end. The fact that they hooked up once is his main ammunition, and it drives Skylar insane. The things he'd do for that guy to leave him alone for good. Skylar, on the other hand, is an addict with absolutely no self preservation and far too many enemies to count. He gets horrible grades, and participates in even worse stunts for his friend's channel online. He is basically injured at all times, and has racked up enough money in hospital bills for his dad-Mayor Vince Hall-to finally get fed up. So, after a series of bad choices, Skylar is told that one more incident will result in him being kicked out of the house. He doesn't take the threat all that seriously, until Jessie-his only protection-is accepted into a college hours away and will be leaving him. That guy vouching for him is basically the only reason that Skylar's dad has put up with his least favorite son's shenanigans all these years. So, the threat starts to feel more real. Then, it happens, and the only person left for Skylar to rely on is Ashton Rivera-who he begins to realize has some serious secrets. Secrets not even Jessie knows. Secrets that become Skylar's new mission to investigate every detail of. - [!!WARNINGS!! This book will deal with serious topics such as addiction and crime. It was somewhat inspired by my book Stalemate so it will hold some similarities to that as well! Also there's probably going to be a decent amount of violence and even more sexual content.]

Cover by: @glueckschmerz PREQUEL TO STARFALL MATURE THEMES WITHIN. Keren, the youngest son of a crime family boss, wants nothing but to escape the life his family is a part of. When there is no other choice, all you have left to turn to is family. For there is no escape for the unfortunate many, and no escape without scars for the lucky ones.

Harley hated his brother's best friend- at least at first. The passive aggressiveness and ego of the man he now shared a house with was nothing short of ridiculous child's play. No one could have foreseen the attraction that suddenly blooms between them- not even themselves. That alone complicated things, but now those in the wealthiest parts of Chicago are beginning to rally around a political candidate with some rather concerning propositions. Setting aside their own rivalries, the people of Southside must band together against a common enemy.

[BXB] Seventeen year old Tucker Bailey is spiraling. Sharing a home with his cold father and a hollow shell of an older brother, Tucker struggles to find himself in a house filled with ghosts of the past. As he battles grief, his intensifying and confusing feelings for his lifelong best friend, Bradley, and his increasing lack of purpose and direction, Tucker decides he wants to take his life back. But the road ahead is a long one and if he takes a wrong turn along the way then he doesn't just risk losing himself; he risks losing everything. [ September. 2022. - present ] #34 in movingforward #47 in comingoutofthecloset #64 friendstolovers #70 in movingon

Sixteen-year-old Emmett Sidney has spent his life trapped in a cycle of abuse at the hands of his father, with no one left to protect him after his mother's death. His older brother, Emilio, promised to stay-but when he turned eighteen, he left without looking back. Now, Emmett is alone, hardened by years of fists and fear. When his dad dies were does he go? Across the country, Emilio Simmons has built a life he never thought possible-a loving wife, a daughter, and a stable home. But a late-night call from the police brings his past crashing back. His father is dead, and CPS is pressuring him to take in the younger brother he abandoned. Emilio can't forget the horrors of his childhood, but facing Emmett again means confronting the guilt and trauma he buried years ago. As Emmett and Emilio's paths cross again, they must both grapple with the wounds of their past and the choices that tore them apart. Can they rebuild what was broken, or are some scars too deep to heal?