"Yah I got my number changed" "But don't tell Mitchel I wanna mess around with him." BOOK ONE

Chase Atlantic dives head-first into another world tour - but is Mitchel ready? Thrown into the world of parties and drugs, the only thing Mitchel wants to do is escape. He finds his calm in his best friend, Christian. But will they stay 'just friends' for long...? Okay tell me why I made this yesterday ant its already #20 in homosexual and #1 in Chase Atlantic???

Desire; (Desired): to wish or long for; crave; want. SHORT STORY!! {TW: DRUGS, maybe smut, self harming, suicidal thoughts, and more}

After several failed on and off relationships, Mitchel and Christian finally seem to be serious about one another. In the past, they had both made mistakes, said hurtful things, disregarded each other's feelings, or thought they would be better off as friends. After a month apart, Mitchel and Christian decide to give their relationship another shot. Mitchel is determined to make it work. He's grown into a better man. A better person. And a better partner. He's learned from his mistakes and ready to prove it. Hopefully, Christian feels the same. Surely he does, right? Find out in "Thantophobia" Meaning: "Thantophobia is considered as a type of anxiety that has something to do with the fear of death, the dying process, or losing someone you love. This phobia can leave a person having a difficult time of coping with feelings of panic or worry and negative thought patterns" (Sintelly, 2021).

Author's Note: This story is about Mitchel and a girl named Cassie. It explores their relationship, emotional growth, and the challenges they face including the realistic struggles of substance use. I want to be clear that I do not condone drug use, nor do I personally undergo addiction. This story focuses on love, support, and understanding, showing that seeking help and having someone who cares can make a difference.

/risk:/ risk: the potential of losing something of value-such as health, someone of importance, finances, or safety-coupled with the uncertainty of that loss occurring. Christian Anthony finds himself slowly falling for his bandmate, Mitchel Cave. He knows the feelings are not reciprocated, yet continues fighting to be noticed; in a different way. He doesn't *want* casual. He wants to be ensured that one day; somehow, he will have Mitchel to himself. He risks the outcome of losing friendship to get closer. And yet.. Mitchel shows signs. **...why do I love you?**

Doing some Manthony One Shots :)) some smut, some fluff~ (updates every Saturday probably)

No one expected for Mitchel's simple 'party life' to spin completely out of control- no one expected that his body was slowly deteriorating whilst he was falling in love with someone that simply seemed so far out of reach. Toxicity is what Mitchel thrives on, so his drugs of choice weren't just the simple ones- his favorite was his best friend.

"You don't understand and maybe you never will. You have every piece of me; you could break me into a million pieces and I would still love you the same way I did yesterday, the day before and nothing could ever change that...but maybe that's why they call it "falling in love" because I keep falling and you're never there to catch me."

"Do I regret any of that? No Because in the process i fell in love with you" BOOK TWO if you haven't read book one yet please do