"Kalani.. Preciate you fa' always bein' there. You my healing.. You and Naiari..."

matilda brown has built her life around dance - early mornings in the studio, late nights creating, and a quiet independence she refuses to lose. but when she reconnects with an old friend, she's pulled into a new creative circle - and meets billie eilish. what begins as effortless friendship - late-night music, shared secrets, living room dancing - slowly turns into something neither of them can ignore. but falling in love is one thing. surviving fame, public scrutiny, and the pressure of the spotlight is another. as privacy fades and tensions rise, matilda and billie are forced to decide whether love can withstand the world watching - or if finding each other means first finding themselves.

i have waited lifetimes to find you.

"Know it's hard to trust but we've been through to much shit, we can't give up." Risk It All On Love.

you keep me sane and safe that's why the bond we have is never ending... be my peace until we know what this is... my first book.. January 2023

"𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡, 𝐰𝐞 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧' 𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐤, 𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐧' 𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐬." - 𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐢 👅 𝙶𝚘𝚍𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚜𝙽𝚊𝚒𝚒 𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚍𝚞𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 © 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟶

𝗠𝘆 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗴𝗮 𝗺𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗜'𝗺 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹.

Stuck in a city overrun by hysteria and struggling to escape the everyday nightmare of a dead end job wasn't how you'd expected to be spending your 20s. When everyone around you is so focussed on the maniac at large, the smaller things tend to go unnoticed until it's far too late.

A single moment can change everything. Ruby never expected her life to take a dramatic turn-until her best friend surprises her with a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to work on The Special Guest, a show that interviews the world's biggest stars. But nothing could have prepared her for the moment she comes face-to-face with Billie Eilish, her favorite singer. What starts as a chance encounter quickly turns into something more. Late-night texts, lingering glances, and undeniable chemistry pull them closer together. But with the world watching Billie's every move, their growing connection doesn't stay a secret for long. Rumors swirl, headlines speculate, and suddenly, Ruby is thrust into a world she never asked to be a part of. As the pressure builds, Billie makes a choice that leaves Ruby questioning everything. Their connection is real, but in the end, will that be enough? Or will Ruby be left as just another fleeting moment in Billie's life? --- Best Rankings #50 fame #70 lesbianromance #46 billieeilish #79 billie

Being on a world tour is nothing new for Billie Eilish. But when her old manager gets fired, and Harper-sharp, stunning, and maddeningly professional-steps in, things start to feel... different. Harper's rule is simple: no mixing business with pleasure. But Billie's charm, wit, and raw vulnerability chip away at Harper's walls. And Billie? She's falling too-but fear, fame, and forbidden feelings make it hard to breathe. In a world full of cameras, pressure, and packed schedules, how do you stay professional when your heart's off-script?